我的生活

很多东西都自己扛。。
也习惯了这样的我。。
尝试和人分担。。
可是还是没办法说出口。。
坚强是我的个性。。
习惯了。。
所以再怎么辛苦。。
还是可以熬过的。。
=）
雨过还是会天晴。。
这就是我。。

看到身边的朋友不行了。。
想帮他们。。
可是因为太容易了解一个人。。
反而要帮也要用对方想要的方法去帮。。
别人开心，我就开心。。
所以，你们要过得好好的。
=）


今天突然好想家人。
我的表达能力不好。。
可是，希望他们知道。。
我爱你们！！
也愿意扛起家里的负担！
=）
想你们，就把照片拿出来看。。
笑一笑，希望你们过得很好。

突然想起一个人。
他就像哥哥一样。
不懂他过得好吗？
都一直在忙。。

生活中有亲情和友情，我就满足了。。
知足常乐。
晚安。。 =）

A broken chain to a chain.

Question for today..
How can a broken chain turn into a chain?
Can it work out?
Is it possible?
And here comes the words.. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.. =)

So, do
And


Have

And


So, we'll see how everything work out. =)

Sick day... SICK SICK SICK.. @_@

Argh!!!
Why...
Nose SUPER ITCHY..
But can't sneeze..
This FACE appear few times!!


Next!!
HaChoo HaChoo HaChoo..
Finally!!!
Oh yea!!!
Feel better..
But end up..
I keep on SNEEZING!!!!


Trying hard to do my journal with the strength I have..

Next!! Tissues Tissues!!!!

And I finish up 1 BOX!!!
U guys must be.. WHAT?!
ONE BOX?!!!??
Yes... I just finished up 1 BOX of TISSUES!!!!
@_@
And I found this online!!!
Once the psn pulled out the tissue, it will HACHOO..
So cute!!
So.. Can it replace me?
Hahaha!!


And next..
I wish I get this!!!
Non-stop supplyer!!
From the magical hat!!
Perhaps.. In my DREAM!! >_<
Got to get some tissues TOMORROW!!!
OUT OF STOCK!!

I think this was my 1st time getting such a worst flu..
Well, I seldom get flu as cough will attack me more.
And this time.. @_@
Fine, I surrender..
But SOON, oh yea SOON!!
My immune system gonna KILL all of you!!
Wuahahaha!!

*Opps, sry buddy, gonna postponed our dinner to another day.
Too tired to go out for dinner. Paiseh paiseh!

2nd day of semester+Movie day!

today is TUESDAY..
And it was like...
Oh man..
Start from ystd, they dump us mountain of assignment, procedure to be done, this and that..
And today presentation, tutor keep on naging naging naging naging naging x10000000000000
We was like..
Har... why... why... why... why...
It was just 2nd day of class and they give us the stress and scold us like..
88 of us totally DOWN after that..
Busy, stressfull, perhaps get scolded and nagging semester just began..
oh yea!
Go go go!!

Today we have presentation about Central Nervous System.
Next, Musculoskeletal System.. And terminology of epidemiology..
But I can't focus much on it..
Stomachache with period pain..
It was SO IRRITATING..
And I started to feel tired and sleepy..
Probably.. Lost to much of blood..
The worst part is HERE COME THE MORNING SINUS!!
My nose BLOCK!
I was like.. On man..
Why I'm so weak?!

Lunch break, meet Jack at Hospital Cafeteria.
So good to see him..
But he came with a SLEEPY face.
Haha!
He told us he slept in the car cause he couldn't find a doctor.
And we talk and talk and talk.
As usual, Smun will kacau him.
And here's the laughter start!!
XD
Thx God for him to being with us today, even though it's just a short 30 min lunch.
Bring CHEER to us.
=)


After class, take a 15min power nap, then went out with Smun, Chin and Torng.
It's been some time I didn't hang out with them.
But, here comes.. HARRY WONG.
I was like..
Ai yo..?!
WHY he's here?!
It suppose to be GIRLS OUTTING!!!
Wookie~
I'm abit besong but chill~
Got to accept that he and Smun is SUPER EXTRA POWERFULL UHU GUM!!
Put them aside and here's the excitement START!!
WOOYEA!!
WATCHED TRANSFORMER 3 TODAY!!!
SO COOL SO AWESOME SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO AMAZING!!!
=)
Of course, my favourite BUMBLEBEE!!
And... hehe..
This Handsome guy~
=P
Though he's not the main character in this movie..
But STILL, okie, he's handsome!
WHAT'S HIS NAME?
Hmph..
Anyway, I seldom compliment people..
But still hahahahaha!!
Oh yea!!
Love his SMILE! =P

But here come the discomfort..


I know.. I'm having fever..
Still I'm there watching Transformer.
I think I'm crazy..
yet, this is the only day that I can spent with them.
So this sacrifies bring Joy and Laughter to them!
=)

Oh happy day HAPPY DAY!
And now, time to sleep.
Sharing been done here..
need to cure my headache and fever by getting enough sleep.
Nitez WORLD. =)

*Miss my mom who use to give me nasal spray daily to prevent my sinus problem. Yet now, there's no nasal spray anymore. Miss home because that's the place that I want to rest and hide when I'm weak.. But yet I can't go back.
Is okie, pray and rest, God will heal me soon!! And no longer that weak and tired! =)

My SunDay! =)

Wake up early in the morning, I was like...
ARGH~
Why am I so freeking TIRED!
Don't even feel like moving..
Not even feel like getting off the bed..
Call Torng Eei asking she wanna go church or not as ystd nitez she didn't answer me.
But she didn't pick up..
Next, text Chin to find her as they are neighbours..
End up... Teeheee...
I fall asleep AGAIN.
Anyway, Smun and Torng decided to go Pulau Ketam.
And yea..
Didn't let me know pun...... =_=
I was like...Why didn't ask me to go along with u guys?
I need a break off too..
But still..
after settle up myself, I CHILL~
Is okie..

Lots of thing had change..
I can't expect things will be as same as last time..
Still..
Probably I'm not doing my best..
Hmph..
I shall do more..
And yea... I don't even know what I'm typing now.
Nvm, the feelings is something that can't be type out perhaps..

Okie, next CHURCHING time!!
=)
Pastor Rob Buckingham!!
Another annointing man is here in City Harvest Church!!
Woohoo~
If u guys miss out his sermon, save up and buy his audio! =)

Oh something funny!!
=)
As time pass, everyone get into technology world, which people called it Y-generation with multiple technology stuff coming out.
So if u guys are 'craving' for iPad.
Nah, here u go..
If Jack get have it, grandpa can have it too..
=P*THUMBS UP!!
And IF U GUYS WANT iPad2
Don't worry.
Here u go..
With cucumber style!
Wuahahaha!
Haha! See!
And I can get it FREE too~
FROM HOSPITAL~
Buaahahahahaha!

Wookiee! Blogging DONE!!
I need to focus back.
STUDY for PRE-TEST!!
SO MUCH!!
Okie okie..
STUDY TIME!! =)

Okie, ONE LAST THING!!
I need to CUT my hair!!
ARGH!!
Befor it turn to this..
Or this!!!

Worst day.. perhaps.. ever!

I failed..
yea.. failed...
=(
T_T

I'm not stress..
I can comfirm I'm not stress..
It's just the feeling that..
But everyone keep on said..
hey, u got to say no if u can't handle so much thing..
hey, is okie, u try your best, don't feel stress..
hey... .....

Just want to let u guys know..
I'm not stress..
I'm just facing the biggest 'enemy' i ever have..
I don't know how to overcome it..
I don't even know how to handle it..
Crap~~
*sigh~

Sry for making everything worst..
Sry for not leading well..
Sry for ruin everything..
I just can't continue at that moment..
Tears.. just keep flowing..
Voice off..
and perhaps..
I don't even know what to do..

God, pls take away my 'enemy'.
I don't like it...
I don't even like who I am now..

悲しい

今日..私の一日失望で終わると悲しい...泣きそう私はちょうど感じる..私はそれを行うことはできません..そして私はそれが最悪のように..どのように..？それを克服するためにはどうすれば。私は本当に何をすべきかわからない..私は自分自身を伝えるに保つ自信が失われてもOK、それは私の初めてだな原因です。しかし、まだ..気持ちはまだ私を圧倒..神様、私はこれがあなたがそれを通過したい季節知っている..しかし、どのように私は自分の強さを見つけることができますか？私はそのような状況になる..多分..無力な..

....I don't know what's the title for this.. RANDOM~

Today right after posting..
I went back and perhaps.. Rest while try to msn with Joy.
And I fall asleep while waiting for her reply.
Aiks..
When I woke up, Smun is right in front of me.
Oh yea! We need to sent Andrew and George back S'pore.
Sial~
Rush out and I realize..
They not even reach Kelana LRT yet.
While waiting, we ate some malay kuih and we talk crab..
Yea, crab..
and we even sing..
and see the train passby one by one..
Some how.. This appear in my mind..
We might can't as crazy n sampat as last time..
things been change just like the train passed by..
So fast and it seems to be season to season..
We need to be mature enough..
And be more serious..
That's what everyone want to see in us, perhaps?
And I think.. they never see.. that we already change A LOT..
And our smile.. Fade.. Just like that..

6.15pm.. Phew!!
Luckily on time before they went off.
And SAW Andrew hair..
Hahahahaha! Like...
okie..
DRAGON!!
I should take a picture.
Anyway, so sad to sent them off..
not really spending a lot of time with them..
But still, appreciate their presence.
Shall see them SOON.
=)

After that, went midvalley with Smun, cause there'r FREE SHUTTLE.
XD
1st time in it..
Pretty awesome, and we no need to pay!!
*Save COST.
And we spent time.. wonder around.. for drinks and food.
Oh yea! get to drink fruit juice and eat meats!!
=)
Fullfill my stomach.
Teehee~

went back quite earlier with BUS. Wow!
*Save MORE COST.

Reach hostel...
Heard rumors agn..
aiks..
And heard argument..
Hmph..
1st, they don't wanna allowed me to lead..
And now blame me for not helping..
And there, argue cause they'r not teaching well..
And there, attandance super low..
Since when a cheerleading team.. Become like this..
Aiks..
How!?
Should I go for it.. perhaps stuck myself in trouble?!
And yea, maybe miracles change and..
I don't know..
how..

Gonna lead some part of the CG this week..
Not one but 2!!
Leading P&W, games, offering....
I'm......

Choir..
BV?!

Things.. spinning in brain..
Need some one to talk to..
But.. where's eveyone?!
Is okie..
Things can be solve..
I just got to find ways and strength..
God!! Help~

hillarious surprise tat end with a powerful encounter

Part 1
Today i got to go out earlier as there's a meeting on before CWPM start.
Decided to go with Joy and I went Kelana Jaya LRT and wait for the bus to go to the area where she stay.
And when I get into the bus, the bus driver scolded me cause I'm not having a 'Bus Card'.
I'm wonder isit the new system.
Luckily I told him i didn't take bus so often and he agree to accept cash as the queue is long.
And he continue to scold those don't have 'Bus Card'..
Still he's accepting the cash..
WEIRD!!

Part 2
Met up Joy after her work and we tried to stop taxi to get to new building.
Few taxi go off as they don't wanna go Subang area or they got passenger in it.
Suddenly a car stopped and he ask us where we wanna go?
We caught in shock but he insist to fetch us.
Joy ask him to show the prove that he's a taxi driver and he took out his 'PROVE'~
Few paper there but I just saw his birth cert. XD
After comfirmation, we decided to get in his car.
As we insist to check his 'prove', he taugh we might not believing him.
All the way there, he's telling us, there's what building in front and want us to comfirm.
XD
I was SPEECHLESS!! XD
And he's driving an SUPER OLD car!! (*The mirror is broken and stick with tape, I can even feel the SOFA is moving, 3 windows are down, no air-cond.....)
He told us his son had just passed away and he need money for the funeral.
So he drove his old car for business instead of his taxi as his taxi is......
*SKIP SKIP
To be shortcut, he's driving SUPER OLD CAR to do his cab 'business'.
And suddenly at the high way..
He told us..
Aiyo.. Minyak sudah habis.. Saya ingat ia boleh jalan sampai ke petrol station.
@_@!!!!
WHAT?! It's high way you know!!!
And he ask us can we help him by pushing the car...
WHAT?! I suppose guys should do this..?!
Anyway, as we gt 2 female and 1 male, we decided to help in by getting down and push his car..
And HAHAHAHA!! Joy & me keep laughing while trying to push the car.. XD
this is the very 1st time I'm doing such thing in a high way.
FEEL GOOD. XD
But the car which passing by doesn't even wanna help up.
They just horn and passedby..
Aiks.. Can't just they be tolerate and help us up..?
Luckily the high way is going down hill.
And the car start to move.
Yippy!!
And the taxi driver ask us to jump into his car..
BUT THE CAR IS MOVING!!!!!
@_@
Oh my~
And luckily we able to JUMP in the car..
PHEW!!!
And the car able to reach petrol station.
And the driver said: See, I told you, GOD is GOOD!!
WOW!! okie!!!
God is really GOOD!
Cause we'r safe after all what had happen along the road.
Phew..
After he pump the petrol, he said, can u guys wait for awhile, the car engine might cant start..
WHAT?!
And he walk to the car wash place and request some help from his friend.
Aiks, we'r running OUT of time.
And we decided to pay him and walk to church.

I still can't stop laughing while writing this blog.
Anyway, we got a good experience in 'PUSHING CAR'.
Perhaps, WE ARE STRONG! XD

1st May 2011

Suddenly feel like writing blog at this hour..
It's a new month!!

For the past 2 months..
So much thing happen in my life..
I know it might not be the worst ever situation I ever had..
And it might not the 'end of the world' for me..
But yet, the time that try to make myself strong ain't not easy..
The feeling just can't be explain just by words..
Trying to be +ve and be cheerfull..
Trying to be strong enough not just only support myself, but also support each of everyone who involve in or not(family & friends)..
Trying so hard to tell myself, duh, nvm, I'm not in the most word situation, buck up, ask God for answer and solution..
SOLVE SOLVE SOLVE!!
Part of it is done.. But some are not..
I know it can't be rushing..
But at least, keep the faith and stay still..

And today when we encounter God, I just feel like poured out everything..
Like what Joy said, God knows everything, and He's comfort us by saying, 'Hey, I'm here..'
That was the moment that I admit: yes, I'm so weak..
I can't describe how it goes but when you really encounter with God, you'll understand how I feel..

~I know that You are for me, I know that You are for me, I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness~
You are for me by Kari Jobe
EXPLAIN everything..
=)

God bless people!
Nitez~

Easter Day Service

Woohoo~
What a great Easter day service.. =)
LOVE GOD THINK OTHERS!!
What have shown in the Sixteen will be part of my life in the future.

Since small.. My mom educated me to do a good deed~
She always told me, 'do charity to help others.. Though we're poor, yet some other people out there may be having a poorer/worst life than us. So help others if we can. =)''
And there's when I start to give out my pocket money to the beggar, donate to whatever organization which is available.
Though my pocket money is just 50sen/RM1.
And since then I just love to do charity work..
Form 1, I follow my form teacher to General Hospital at Ipoh just to take care the kids who admit in hospital..
Form 2, I went OKU centre to give them some recycle item.
So as form 3 and form 4.
Form 5, i went old folks home.
And last year I went to help up in Junior emerge and visit orphanage..
Well, I just love hanging around with them..
Their smile will brighten my day!! =)

Haha! and when Pastor preach bout somebody email him, he past his B'day by blessing the orphan!
And guess what!! This is how I want to celebrate my b'day this year!!
Woohoo~ SO whoever see this.. =)
Well, u guys know what to do! XD
Haha!! or else maybe u guys can bless me with an amount of money!! =)
woohoo~ sial..
Am excited for it!!
ahaha!! Opps~

I just decided to sign up for Community Care!!
Err.. But how?
Gotta ask Joy Joy 1st. XD
Stepping in 1st step of my life~
Woohoo~

And I wanna be a millionare.. SO FREAKING BAD~
Haha! I wanna build home for those who needs!
Go mission trip~
Help others!!
Bless others!!

P.S: Anyone who's interested!! Come along with me. =)

Presence of God!

Presence Conference 2011!
Finally I get to watch it at Chia Huey house.
Totally a bless and Spirit of God overwhelmed me!
Even we sit in front of the TV watching Live show..
Yet the presence of God is strong!
Just feel so so so so touch!
Kari Jobe who leading worship make everyone fall into the presence of God!
Powerfull!

After it ends~
We have a short prayer with CG member and Chia Huey~
Many things been happen in Cell Group member..
My grandpa and Smun's Grandma past away..
Joy is so stress in her life..
Torng Eei facing her identity problem..
Much much more..
='(
Oh sial~ Feel like crying edi..

I still remember when my grandpa past away, I went back alone..
I didn't even told anyone that he's no longer with us..
Till I reached and I tweet..
Joy know, and I told Torng and Chin too.
Yet everyone is busy and prep for Smun's b'day thingy~
So I choose to be more silent and stay stronger..
Yet Shan Yong called, and ask me how was I..
U know, it's so hard to pretend ok..
Plus I really don't know how to express out my feeling..
Yet everything is cover..
My friends and family think I'm strong enough to face it..
But actually not..
Till today.. I totally cry out to God..
Thx God for building up a new character for me..

And Smun, stay strong too.. =')
Our grandparents is at a better place.
I believe they don't want us to be unhappy too..
Take carez~


P.S.
Everyone will face stress and unhappy thing happen in their life..
Don't forget that actually our problem ain't not big compare to those who really suffer in their life..
Walk out from your past..
Walk out from your stress..
Walk out from your unhappiness..
Walk out from your problems..
Encounter God in everything..
For You believe Him, He'll help you to pass through every single problem in your life..
Take is as challenge..
And don't forget, God will challenge you in your life..
If you have faith, you'll pass the test!

I just knew that everyone expect me to be strong enough to face my grandpa past away..
But..
Too bad..
not this time.
Anyway, time past and I'll be alright..
Perhaps give me some time..
And I'll be fine. =)

So much things going on and so much things to be done!
Believe in God that He'll help me through all this.
Coz God never give things that you can't face.
It's time to test my faith..
Well, as Keith said

"Faith not tested is faith not proven"

Went Church Wide Prayer Meeting ystd..
Pray and learn~


The meaning of this picture..
It's from God..
And Joy..
Touch~
thx for the answer..
Guess what..
When I was on the way back from Taiping..
I spent some time thinking and wondering.
And suddenly I see my watch.
That's when my watch stop..
but the few minute and hour thingy is going on..
Weird, right?!
Resposibility is getting bigger.
It's time to step out from my comfort zone..
I might afraid..
But Joy if u see this..
I know you'll walk with me, right?

exam next week, MON-THUS..
Assignment to rush!!
5 week journal to rush!!!
Haunted house to be in-charged and done next thus!!!!
Wow!! Stress level up to 40%!!
Buck up buck up!!
got to buck up!

Goodbye Grandpa!! ='(

Grandpa had been struggle a lot when he fall sick.. Many years ago, he get diebetic and hypertension. And he even had to do heart surgery.. He past through that season but yet, the health still 'turn on the RED button'. Few years ago, he's was diagnose for diebetic gangrene. Few of his toe at right side got to be chop off as the wound is getting worst.. Yet he past through that season. But his kidney is giving him problem. End up with kidney failure and he had to do dialysis altered day.. and start from March.. His health is getting worst!! He got sudden angina. And went for emergency.. Luckily it was on time yet doctor want him to be operate as soon as possible. But his left leg is giving him problem. he got a wound there and as a diebetic patient, it's quite hard for his wound to be heal. End up his toe got to be chop off toe by toe as it was infected. And his heart surgery got to be delay as coagulant drugs will be given to him if he do the heart surgery. And the drugs will make his leg bleeding none stop. My grandpa was quite phobia as his toe is chop off one by one.. And he keep on walking till he bleed because he insist to come back Taiping. End up my uncle decide to bring him back. few days ago.. His wound get infection. My uncle drive him all the way down from Taiping to Kedah just to get the best treatment for his leg daily.. It's quite tiring for them but yet things get worst after that.. Grandpa start to be unconscious from time to time. Yet he refuse to go hospital. He's afraid that his leg will be amputate. On thusday, which is the day I went back, I can't meet him up because my uncle had drive him all the way to Penang for treatment. He get sepsis shock.. And depends on intubater to survive. Doctor said his leg must be amputate, and the persentage is just 50%. Yet, my grandpa can't survive without the intubater. Family decide to sent him back using ambulance. And at the time he's move in the house, he start gasping for air and here end his life.. ='( I can't make it on time to meet him up for the last time. Yet.. I know.. and I believe, he is at a better place now.. Goodbye Grandpa.. Take carez.. And let go everything.. Family will stay strong and take carez one another.. Don't worry.. =') *Lesson to learn.. I though by keeping my own feeling.. It wounld be a better way to support my family. But actually I'm wrong. Mixing feeling happen in between.. not gonna tell off here.. Anyway, thx for those who call me, tweet me and text me. You guys does support me!! Thx a lot..

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难过了，戴上耳机，漫步在小路上、­

难过了，吃自己喜欢的东西。

难过了，静静的蹲下来抱着自己，让眼泪尽情的洒落­

难过了，拿着镜子看看此刻的自己，让真实浮现眼前­

难过了，默默的将自己隐藏起来，让空虚掩盖一切­

难过了，闭眼倾听周围的声音，让自己沉浸在喧嚣中­

难过了，不必告诉别人，自己的悲伤为何要别人也承担呢­

难过了，可以假装快乐，和别人一起兴奋时就能遗忘了自己­

难过了，仍然安慰别的伤心者，你会发现自己也在受益，当局者迷而已

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有谁不曾难过 ­

有谁还会记得 ­

过去的不再从来 ­

又何必去苦想 ­

忘掉… ­

用微笑渲泄悲伤

Saw this accidentally~

Sounds so emo.. yet.. still wanna post it..

Hahaha!! RANDOM!

Random BLOG~

So much thing in my mind..
And it just doesn't come out it words!
So let it be and that's it.. =)
So let's had a random blog~

Anyway, I'm quite amazed by a person who is hameophobia to donate his blood yet end up fainted.
Pround of you man!
But yet he could save a life by what he did.
At least not like me, forever can't donate blood at all..
Anyway, I'm signing up for a donate organ thingy when I'm 21st. =)
At that moment, I hope my parents will not disagree with it~

Saw a blog of a singer called Sheena.
I'm quite surprice!
Cause she's out with her own EP.
And her dream come true~
She became a singer.

Been talking a lot with my best friend this few days~
I understand more of what and how she think..
But yet, if the people around her doesn't understand..
Yet still, maybe the situatio is still the same~
Jia you ba, my friend!
You'r in a good life..
Perhaps a better one is in the future..
don't missed out the chance.. =)
remember, ....
I suppose maybe without words, you know what I wanna say~
ON yr 'blue tooth'..

buddy, hello!
I know yr life is stress and maybe you go through a lot of thing that I might don't know..
But this is life..
is either you go through it or you will stuck with it.
I might dunno what are you going through, but yet, stay strong!
And it doesn't sound so you nowadays..
Where's the buddy I know..?
everyone had their own stress and thingy happen in their life..
just remember, your's is not the worst.
Even you don't like it, so do I, don't like the student life I'm having now.
But yet you choose this life, so Go and Finish it up~

2 more days! 2 more!! I'm travel all the way down to Penang!
ALONE!!
I'm going to visit my grandpa who's at Penang hospital.
Miss him so much~
Pray for a safe journey and stay strong!
And pray for my grandpa.. For God will heal him.

I'm wonder why after Pastor preach the valentine service, everyone keep on help each other to connect and get into a relationship?!
I've been motivate by few friends to connect me and him.
We used to be close friend but yet both of us know that's the only maximum.
Best friend remain best friend.
Stop connecting me and him..
It doesn't work.
Thank you. =)

worry-ing make my day!

Though I'm strong but actually not..
Worry been flowing in me today..
Wake up, found that there's lot of tissue on bed..
decide to ignore it and sleep again..
But keep on waking up..
to check the phone..

Went posting..
It's been a busy day..
8 admission..
no dinner..
gastric attack..
No even feel like eating..
Though of busy will reduce my worry..
But actually not..

Aiks~
what's wrong with me..!!
Shouldn't be like that.. >_<

Suddenly I wish I'm not studying nursing..
I'll would had more free time..
At least I'll be with my grandpa now..
He's alone there..
chase everyone back home..
I know how he feel.
At least if I'm there, I got reason not to leave..
And my uncle will not drive all the way to Penang to visit him..

Today he suppose to do heart surgery.
But yet, the diebetic gangrene cause his toe wound getting worst.
Doctor decide to delay the op day.
And today.. He lost another toe..
=(

I can't contact my mom at this hour..
Been posting till so late..
Perhaps they slept..
Am worry more..
Though I know I not suppose to..
Pray and sleep soon..

God, I believe in You..
Take away the sickness and pain from my grandpa..

Sunday

Wow! today I'm awake by Joy!
She called me to wake me up..
And she even provide me Be Glorified lyric through phone!
I'm blessed~
hahaha!

Makeup time~
For the very 1st time I try to make up using water mascala..
EPIC FAILED!
Doesn't look as what I want..
Anyway, still able to cover with pen mascala!
Opps~ Out of time to clean~

Choir practice~
And for the very 1st time I practice with a full chinese praise song.
Quite challenge me this time cause I can't connect well.
Too used to English version..
Especially Thank You by C3..
Anyway, I've make it and oh yea~
Everyone is hyper..
Keep on singing high pitch!
And in the service, though not everyone know how to sing Chinese..
but everyone is in it..
Well done CHOIR!

RANDOM sing K session~
Aww~
I enjoy it so much..
Sing till my voice nearly koyak at the last song..
Press pause pause, repeat repeat, stop stop for Lester. (Actually is ACCIDENT)
Opps sry Lester..
Press singer, karaoke, singer, karaoke for Smun who dunno how to see old Mandarin words!

Call mom when we on the way to Kelana Jaya.
She told me..
Grandpa is in the hospital..
He need to do heart surgery~
By tomorrow..
Will he pass through it, it's all depends on..
='(
With the kidney problem, stomach problem..
And the surgery wound that he just lost his another toes agn.
God, please take away all the sickness from my grandpa..
And the pain too..
Let him be more patient to get through all this treatment..
And the financial blessing among my family for the treatment..
Heal him with your mighty hand!

Dinner time~
Had a long chat with Smun..
well, it's really been some time we didn't sit and talk..
She felt it the same way..
everyone is busy..
Not easy for this season..
Perhaps..
It's part of growth..
Life change..
We spent 1 and half hour for dinner..
Just to talk more and know each other more..

Walk all the way back to hostel..
Am now done with my bath..
lying on the bed with lappy and writing blog..
So much thought had come across..

WHY..?! Day~

been going here and there today..
Even in after tea break..
Saw so much ppl around..
passby some ward..
Look around..
observing people..
spending time with friends and members just now..
And too bad, 2 of my friend get angry on me because of..
*sigh, nvm~
well, there are different type of people with different character.
Each of them are unique!
what to said..
Hmph.. I dunno.
Psychology and sosiology~
Study bout human and behaviour and bla bla bla~
interesting but so much thing appear in my mind..

为什么一个人可以那么悲观。。
为什么一个人可以那么开朗。。
为什么一个人的脾气会那么奇怪。。
为什么一个人的性格是这样的。。
为什么一个人的性格是那样的。。
很好奇。。
难道就不能改变吗。。。？
可是认识无法十全十美的，对吧。。？

Well, if you can't make it happen, and no one else can, there is only thing left to do, finally look up and trust in God to make it right.

Put it on God's to-do list.. =)

Disaster! Part 2

Just watch news on NTV7.
Japan had lost 300+ people..
Building are down, most of the place are floaded..
They lost family, friends, home, money..
Perhaps.. Some, everything..

Continue to keep them in prayer!

*Am worry~ Still can't contact my friends!

And pray for Malaysia too!
I don't wish to see news of Tsunami affected Sabah..
I got a lot of friends from Sabah, their family is there~
God, please protect them!

Not forgetting China, though their earthquake is 5+, but yet, people are still stuck in the colapse building!
Pray for the rescue team to search them out asap and save their life..
And so do the victim will be stay strong and live till rescue team save them out!

Stay STRONG! and don't give up hope!

Disaster!

The 8.9 quake hit the north-east of Japan, triggering a Tsunami!!

After I read this news!
Yes, I'm worry~
Guys, if u read my blog, please keep Japan in your prayer~
For protection, love and peace upon the nation..
It's gonna be a tough time for them.
no electric, no accomodation, no food, no drink, no transport..
Please pray for them..
Let them stay strong and support each other!

and I just read this..
Tsunami Alert for New Zealand, the Philippines, Indonesia, Papua New Guinea, Hawaii, and others. Waves expected over the next few hours, caused by 8.9 earthquake in Japan.
what's gonna happen next?

梦想。。

相信每个人都有自己的梦想吧。。？
你真正的梦想是什么。。？
你现在在前往你的梦想吗？
你的梦想就快达成了吗。。？
还是你已经活在你的梦想了。。？

要实现一个梦想不简单。。
付出的往往会比自己想象的多。。
再辛苦，也要相信自己，不要放弃。。
那你一定会成功。。
好好加油吧！
就算失败了，也没关系。。
至少你曾经努力过。。

=）

写华语

这几天，都好想用华语写字。。
华语也许没那么简单，但我喜欢。。

今天好忙。。
跑上跑下的，像大忙人一样。。
连Pharmarcy的人都认得我了！
病人却没什么照顾到。。
可是，没关系。。
忙也许是一件好事。。
可是之前扭到脚的痛又回来了。。
还记得那是以前参加Olahraga时的回来的伤。。
好怀恋以前在草场奔跑的时候。。
没信心，还是要跑！
=）

今天有些事很不顺利。。
弄得自己还蛮生气的。。
过后想了又想，为什么要生气呢？
我以前的忍耐度不是超好的吗。。？
跑去那了。。？
是时候反省反省咯。。

他今天找我。。
我，回了他。。
不想多说我的事。
特地转移话题。。
谈歌咏队的进展。。
却让我想起那是我们认识彼此的开始。。

突然读到了这一个。。
you are limiting yourself only with your own imagination. And your greatest limits are not even the ''cannot'' and the ''should not'', but the places where your imagination hasn't yet gone at all. There has never been a better time for you to open your eyes, let the imagination soar and see what more is possible.
我的结论。。
There is nothing ''out there'' that's holding you down.

今天就只有这样。。
晚安。。
=）

累了。。

也许今天大家都很累。。
也没什么心情。。
所以特别疯狂。。
至少，这是我们其中解除烦恼的日子吧。。
吃了日本餐。。
明明就很多食物。。
可是却吃不饱。。
还在大庭广众唱歌。。
买了零食和特甜饮料。。
就打算继续疯狂。。

今天受到了他的信息。。
他说。。你最近还好吗。。？
很抱歉没把事实说好。。之类的话。。
但这一切也许太迟了吧。。？！
我选择不回。。
因为我真的不好。。
太多事情在一瞬间发生。。
家庭，你还有学业。。
一直告诉自己没关系。。
要坚强。。
我可以做到。。
只是要时间吧！
我不开心的，是因为你没把事实告诉我。。
而是让别人揭发。。
可是这一切已经不重要了。。
我往前走，向前看！
给点时间去把自己的心恢复原状。。
还是会心痛，可是，可能我真的需要时间，也许我们可以变回好朋友。。
=）

1st post of March

One week past!
I've been spending time to fellowship with friends for the week.
1st was on Tues which was too RANDOM outting!
Spending some time to fellowship.. =)
watch a movie, SANCTUM, which can make people tension gau gau~
Anyway, enjoy it! haha!
and thx bro for spending the RANDOM time for me.. =)
I suppose u see this. haha!
Next was on thus, spending time with CG member.
Though cg member are same college, but we really busy with posting..
Cant even spent time to talk.
Even we meet, we was just hi bye~
Haha! I even told Chin, hello! it's been so long I didn't see you!
Anyway, enjoy CG with them..
At night, 2 people come to me and tell me their problem.
I'm glad they share their problem..
At least, it help in reduce their burden and stress.
FRIDAY! ANDREW TENG is BACK!
hahahaha! Good to see him(though we expect that he'll be back from S'pore)
We went Pyramid, while waiting ppl to come, mom called~
and cried in Pyramid. I can't believe I did that..
Luckily not much ppl saw~
Anyway, we spent time with Andrew by having dinner together and even went Meeples after that.
Next day we spent time for dinner too!
And singing and playing guitar~
We really miss the time we had!
He's just so good in playing guitar~
we can sing smoothly.. =)
And today!! Finally I'm back to CHOIR!
Oh happy day~
It's been a month we'r not there..
Really miss Choir Team 3.
But.. I just saw few people there.
And after service, we went Neway!
Awesome! Joy pick those high pitch songs!
Quite challenging man!
Haha! Still we'r hyper! =)
Thx for it.. Cause I'm halfly not in the mood..
Cause yea, I met him but we didn't talk.
I wish.. At least.. We can talk like usual~
Perhaps..?
I dunno what will going on next.
But.. duh.. leave it.
Here's almost end of my week!
CONCLUSION:
Spending so much time with so much people this week.
I enjoy the fellowship..
Haha~

(*every single people have their own problem. It's depent on how you overcome it. Either you work it out or you'll down because of it. +ve thinking is very important! Some problem might hardly found solution, but.. Believe in God that He'll help you and lead you past through everything. Have faith!)

Fellowship..

Pastor said, fellowship is not to achieve a goal, it's a way of doing life that bring out a balance in our life.
Well!
Thinking back of the time I fellowship with friends and family..
I realize, spending some time with some people, can help without you relize it too..
Anyway, friends, if u guys reading this, just remember, spent some times with yr friends and family..
Communicate with them more.
And remember, spent some time talking face to face, have a cup of 'COFFEE'(I think coffee will have good business after this! =P) is better than keep in touch by technology like FB, Twitter or sms.
The precious time u guys spent together would help a person a lot.
Their heart will be more open, you guys can know a person feeling much more better..
Be understanding and be more patient to a person who sharing their problem..
Well!
I think I shall learn how to share too..
I keep to much..
I'm still learning..
Sometime is hard to say out my problem.. or even stress or even some situation..
It's all stuck on my throat..
*sigh~
There's once, my friend told me that my problem is just a small matter..
But for me it's big..
Well, different people have different tough and feeling.
Just sometime I rather u guys just listen, maybe pray for me.
That would be better..
Anyway, doesn't matter of what situation it is..
Cause everytime u share, u gt a different feed back from people. =)
I shall learn to share more..
So, anyone, wanna have lunch or dinner with me..?
Hahahaha~

Planning for this weekend. =)

What shall I do on this saturday..?
I'm plan to become a bag packer again but I dunno where to go..
Haha!
Wanna save cost..
Yet I need a break.
Or shall I.. Do something fruitfull..?
Like facing my fears..?
But I can't do it myself.
Who's free to accompany me..?
so either travel or spent sometime on my stuff..
Which to choose..?
both is important.
Need to make a decision before weekend come.
Anyway, focus on taking care baby 1st.
Hahaha!!
They'r too cute.
Some are so manja.
I gotta hug them, manja-manja abit then only they can sleep.
Haha!
CUTE~
5 more days to go.
Jia You! =)

What a down week..

Oh my~
I can't believe that I stuck myself in such an emotional week..
I can't effort the 'pain' and problems..
It really stuck me in a bad situation!
=(
Though I've pray and get to read my bible..
It still can't get over it.
Fear remains fear..
I've try to start focus on study and it works!
Yet it was remind by ppl again~
And here's the insomnia and nightmares come..
I don't feel like talking bout..
But I just need a way to express out the feelings..
Maybe a hug or an ice-cream will do..
or I rather stuck myself
But I really refuse to TALK!
argh!
I need to recover soon!!
As soon as possible!!!

What a week had past..

Phew! Here comes the new week!
It's sunday~
Well, too much things fly over in my mind last week.
Perhaps too much.
And I didn't get to talk to a psn..
And I get angry easily..
Opps! There's one day, when Smun and Chin try to tie my hair, but kena scold.
Sry yea, if u guys read this.
U guys kacau at the wrong time..
Anyway, the week had past.
Though some of the problem might haven't solve, might even some answer haven't appear.
Still is alright..
Waiting for the right time to let God show me and lead me.
May fell dissapointed or sad in between but is alright..
Walk by faith!! and everything will be okie soon.
And take care to you, you, you and you.And you all.. =)
Not mentioning names but do believe!
Something might change~
And miracle might happen~
And well~
......
How to said?
Duh~
Nvm..
=)
Smile always and take carez!
New week with new days!
New hope is here too~
=)

Just~ Need a person to talk to..

I need a person to talk to..
Too much things flow in my mind today..
Might can take it might cant make it~
Feel so weak for the day..
Perhaps for the weak~
Need a restoration..

LAst Day At Ipoh..

Finally, this day come..
Don't feel like going back after spending so much time here..
=(
I don't wanna GO BACK!!!

Time for more Fun!! Day 3!!

woohoo~
It's day 3!!
Today we gonna have lunch with cousins as they gonna fly off to Australia to continue study.
Well, it's time for them to go back as they've skipping the class for few days.
We spent some time together..
And before they left to KL, my grandma and cousin sister tears drop..
aww~~
Though they gonna be apart till June, but I can understand how much they'll miss each other.
It's not easy for 2 teenager who is 18 and 16 to left their home when they'r 17 and 15.
Well~
All the best man!!

On the way!!
Camhore!! haha!
The light from the mirrow does 'support' me~
Nice! Feel natural with the lights!



And my brother join me too! haha!



Around 1+, I went to De Garden and meet up my primary school friends.
We meet up once a year!
So great to meet up them as some of them are study and working at Australia, S'pore and Taiwan.
They'll be back once or maybe twice per year!
Aww~
We spent some time for fellowship and talk bout how's life now.
And hahahaha!
They all though I've pak tor edi!!
*as they said I grow thinner and prettier!!
*Ehem!! Mana ada!! I grow side way by eating too much this few day le!
Ahahaha!
Laugh gau gau!!
And they even came to my house!
They said: Siang Lin, your house is super cold wei compare to outside!
and they stick in till almost dinner time.

This 2 guys used to sit with we when.. Hmph~ I forgot when but they kena 'bully' by me! Haha! there's few more but they'r not here.



These are my classmates too. =)



Around 6+pm, after my aunty called, my hp suddenly turn dark!!
What's going on?!
Try to open it but FAILED!!
Oh no~~
It really BO liao~
=(
Go and check and I've told that it can't fix at all.. =(
Sad case!!
Daddy decided to buy me a new one.
He said check the Nokia one.
But.. I don't like Nokia.
Anyway, my hp 'alive' after awhile.
Stil function but it will go off itself and turn on itself..
Daddy want me to go and find out which phone is usefull.
I've check it out till I blurr!!
So much!
I don't even know which to pick!
My aim, HTC(*might can't as it really expensive!!) or Samsung Galaxy or no choice, I got to take the Nokia touch phone.
No!
I don't want..
I need to find out a phone or few choices before Monday end!!
If not, daddy gonna choose by his own..
HELP!!

Day 2!

Wuahahaha!!
It's time to GO BACK TAIPING!!!!
Since I study nursing, we just got chance to go back once per year~
And now finally a year past!
I'm able to go back and see my grandpa and grandma and all my uncle and aunty!!

Breakfast time!!
I wanna eat my favourite mee jawa which I used to eat and never missed out every Sunday when I'm still staying there.
But But.. The shop didn't OPEN!!
Argh!!!
How come~
They used to open by the 2nd day of CNY!
Aww~~ ='( nvm..
Eat other food.

After that we went to Grandpa and Grandma house!!
Yippy~
Nice to see them staying healthy and cheerfull!! =)
And so nice to see my uncle and auntie and all the cousins!!
We talk and talk and talk..
After that, LUNCH time!! Woohoo~~
Grandma food is still yummy!
Never change!! =)
Nais~



After lunch, all the kids and teenager went upstairs for internet and games!!
Everyone is facing computer for games, TV for PS2 and lappy for internet!
Haha!!
Well, this is what the 'youngster' do!!
And suddenly we heard the adult shout!
Hey, come and see some interesting thing!!
Okie okie!!
We went down and we saw.......
THE EGG IS STANDING ON THE FLOOR!!
Hahaha!
According to Chinese, egg can be stand during立春only!!!
Oh yea~ Interesting!!
I try to make it and ta da~
3 eggs standing!!
woohoo~~
Taking down picture and upload!
and I even encourage people to do it to!!
Haha!! for the very 1st time I'm so excited for it!!
Yipppy~



And till today, the egg is still standing!
Haha! weird right?!

Around 4pm+, daddy said wanna go back edi as tonight we'll have dinner with relative!
what!? so early!!
I wanna eat grandma dinner~
Anyway, we got to leave.
And before we leave, I'm able to eat half piece of bah gua and drink Shandy. =)
Nais~

while we heading to tol, it's kind of jam and for no choice, daddy used the kampung road.
And I suddenly realize that I forgot my phone!!
Oh man!!
It doesn't rang for the whole day and that's why I forgot it!!
Oh man!!
My dady gonna scold me..
I told him and he didn't scold me.
He just said, how come u so careless?
And he had to U-Turn all the way back to grandparents house..
Opps~ Sry daddy!!
I doesn't mean to forgot..
Sry though u didn't scold me..
Feel so guilty.

We reached Ipoh around 7pm.
Take and bath and it's dinner time!
We gonna eat at restaurant again!!
Woohoo~
food here I come!!
Nais!!
We lou sang and eat and eat and eat and eat!!
And so much left over!
Oh man!!
Too full for the day!!

LoU sAnG!


after that, we went to uncle house.
Kids playing firecrackers outside while the rest is in the house watching tv channel.
I'm so bored so I decided to camhore!!
Haha!!
and my sister(Apple) and cousin(Diana) join in!



And this is my 2011 favourite T-Shirt!! Nais~ =)



Relatives who come over. =)



Enjoy the day! =)

The First Day of Chinese New Year!! 03022011

Woohoo!!!
It's the 1st day of Chinese New Year!!!
Yippy~
Wake up by 10am as my parents wanna have breakfast.
Haha!
And before we bath, mom shout, DON'T WASH YOUR HAIR!!!
okie okie..
It's part of the chinese culture that we cannot wash our hair on the 1st day of CNY as it mean will wash away the 'prosper' away.
After we get ready, we said Happy Chinese New Year to our parents and oh yea! We get our ang pau!! =)
WOohoO~
After that mom prepare a chinese longan(torng sui) for us. =)

*Before going out, had some self loving picture! haha!



Around 11+, accoding to my family, we'll go temple.
So we follow our parents.
After the prayer, we walk to a playground beside the the temple.
There are a mamak stall there.
And there's a mini 'sunway lagoon' too.
People can enjoy water, food, picnic, playground and even jog here. =)
Nais~
And my daddy said, all the lights and water is done under me.
Wow!
Now only I know after it's been here for few years edi!!
Amazed!! Haha!!

We went for breakfast and perhaps it's lunch as it was almost 12 noon.
And this is what I eat.



It called 'lai fun'.
Very Q but taste weird.
The main point is the LOBAK!
It's another type of cooking!
Oh yea!
By eating it~
You can feel the minced meat mix together with celery.
It's juicy when mix together with the soup~
Nais.. =)

After breakfast, I spent my time sitting in front of the lappy and enjoy my drama.
Hahaha!
PS man.
It's a nice drama..
The story line is interesting as you can't expect what will going on next.
And after each drama end, they'll show some part of how the drama is produce for some scene.
What a good learning for me!! =)

Take a nap and when I'm awake, it's dinner time!!
Woohoo~
All my cousins, uncle, aunty and grandma is here!!
I keep on taking out the food for my family member.
I even need to cook for the soup as not enough..
This make me missed out my chance of eating my mom new 'invent' food, the bean cook with spareribs and the soy sauce fish as everyone finish up all..
And accidentally cut myself(and I still wonder where I get the cut as it was on my leg).
It bleed!!
When I ask my mom for a plaster, she said 'a nurse is trying to self medic herself.'
And everyone laugh!!
Ahahaha!!
Wookie..
Well, a nurse can get hurt too.
And as usual, a normal person will self medic too.
Hmph~ Nvm.. =)
Everyone enjoy the food!!
Nais~

After food, the adults go to living room and had a chat.
All the kids playing computer games and toys.
While all the teenager face the lappy and some even rest on bed!!
=)

My brother and cousin playing football on the floor.



My another cousin is kind of BO edi as he's been going round for lion dance for the whole day.



The kids wanna play firecrackers!!
Aww~
I'm so lazy to go out..
But once/yr!
Alright!!
Let's go to uncle house. =)
They've bought almost RM300 firecrackers!!
What?!
SO EXPESIVE!! Sial~
Yet their parents buy as the kids want.
End up all enjoy. =)



*Caught dating!! Haha!! My uncle and his wife.. =)



My day end up by checking the wound!!
Argh!! Got scar!!!
=(



SOB SOB.. ='(

REUNION DAY!! =)

Oh yea!! It's reunion day!
It's family gathering time!!
Woohoo!!
Wake up by 10 to help up my mom!!
1st thg to do for the day is do my washing job!!
These are the thgs that I need to clean.. =)



The CHAIRS!!! Hahaha! cause relative is coming over.
So chairs is very important!!
Wash with water and put it under the sun for the plastic chairs while wipe the leather sofa!!
=)
Next is table, plates, cups, fork and spoon. =)
Then I suddenly saw my mom car is dirty and I ask her, shall I wash this too?
My mom said, GOT more things for u to do, u wash that the day after tomorrow.
Haha! Wookie Wookie~
And she ask me to twist this. =)



These is going to be burn for ancestors.

According to my family culture, my family will pray ancestors every year before lunch.
And we'll display a 'dining table' for them. Like this..



As usual, I'll help in display and keep all these things.
And wash up after used. Oh yea, washing agn. haha!!

After done, hehehe~
Here come the 'mouse'.. =P
Curi-curi makan lobak!!



And I had my lunch with daddy and mummy as my sister went out edi while my brother don't feel like eating yet cause he ate breakfast lately~
Here's the lunch. =)



At night! Here comes my uncle and aunty with their family.
We had a nice reunion dinner. =)
Mom home cook food is the best man!!
Oh nais.. Very full!! =)
And suprisingly, as my cousin had grow up, now they can do the house work!
Oh yea! NAis.. (*I no need to wash all the dishes edi)
Wuahahaha!
Here's what my cousins do..



My cousin sister is washing the plates!! Haha!
*She refuse to see towards the camera. >_<
And my cousin brother is cutting pamelo!! =)
Nais~
He learn from the lion dance club.
3 steps!
1. cut
2. cut agn and peal
3. put in order
And ta da~ done.. =)



Nais looking!! =)
Anyway, they'r leaving to Australia on this sat as their class gonna start soon..
Aww~ Gonna miss them a lot!!

And here's the funny one!



My aunty who went Macau had slim down as she always walk to work.
But she gonna gain weight in a mean while as she already ate 2 plate!!
Here come the 3rd one!!
Haha! not fowgetting to finish up the sauce too..
Sial~
Anyway, let her eat as much as she want.
She gonna leave by next week for work..

Last but not least!!
We get our ang pau from grandma!! Yippy!!
Rabbit year with rabbit ang pau!! Nais~



The RABBIT with lights and no lights. CUTE!!



Happy CHinese New Year!!!
And don't sleep so early!!
Cause u gonna be awake by the fireworks!! =)

And last but not least!!
What shall I wear tomorrow?



Hmph~
Choosing choosing~