Awesome weekends. =)

Haha! Daniel and Deborah invite us to their house again. =)
Woohoo~ Smun and me got 2 days off!
And their offer is such a blessing man!
Daniel, Deborah, David, Helbert, Ernest, Joy, Andrew, Smun, Torng Eei, Allen..
We play cards, stuck in front of the lappy online and play games, we swim, we attend church svc together, we ate, we make garlic bread, we share hauted story and sleep together-7 people in one room...
I even baby sitting a 1 yrs old child..
Aww~
So nice..
Thx for the fried rice.. =)
Thx for the garlic bread.. =)
Thx for teaching me how to sit in the swimming pool.. =)
Thx for teaching me how to hang upside down in a pool.. =)
Thx for letting me know different culture of Christianity.. =)
Thx for letting me know more bout u guys.. =)
Thx for let me experience how to baby sitting a kids. =)
Thx for reducing my home sick.. =)
Thx for everything.. =)

I enjoy my weekends.. Hope u guys too..

公視SD-True Colors-Olivia

Like the way she sing. =)

End of November..

#Somehow in between, i'm lost..
I lost the motive, i lost my purpose of joining nursing..
Nursing life is not easy to go through but yet!
This is the life i choose..
Thx God.. That You've remind me the purpose!
The purpose why i choose the medical line!
It was my mission to become a volunteer to help out the poor and sick people!
It was my mission to train myself in medical line no matter I'm a nurse or a doctor!
It was my mission to travel all over the world to help them!
And now It is still my mission..
I've forgot but yet You remind me..
And now, my energy is re-fill!
Go and continue nursing life!!


It's almost end of November..
And December is coming!
Christmas is coming too!
This is my very 1st Christmas!
What will happen on that day..?
Gift exchange perhaps..?!
Awesome production..?!
Woohoo!!
Can't wait for it to come.. =)
And it's gonna be a busy season for me..
Posting, procedure to rush, plan for December, Emerge, Christmas, vocal self-training..
Lot's of stuff to do!
oh yea oh yea!
ENJOY!

Ice-Cream needed.. God needed..

Is been so long that i quit eating ice-cream.
Been to addicted and rely on it..
And now, i just feel like have one of it.. =)
Perhaps a choco top from McD..? Or New Zealand? or Haagen Daz? Or Baskin Robin..?! Conetto? Anyone of it..
Things fly pass my mind..
Lot's of lot's of things happen..
And how..
How to handle it..?
God!! help me pass through this season!
Give me strength!
Widen my capacity!

My guitar is G-O-N-E!

When i step in the house, i put everything in proper way.
And the next thing is go and grab my guitar!!
And i cant find it!! =(
Why WHy WHY?!
Where it go?!
I asked my mom and she said, I give it to your cousin edi.
=( =( ='( =''(
My guitar!
I though i can keep in touch with it when I'm back..
I though i can play it again..
I though i can play some music and create the video for State of the arts competition.
I though i can.........
='(
My heart broke and my tears down.
Too bad..
I'm sad now..

mix Feeling!

Back to Ipoh, finally!!
It's been so long I've been home.
I know I miss home..
But when i leave KL, I miss KL pula.. >_<
Well, I'm too used with my spiritual family edi.
Without them, I don't know how I can survive at KL.
Without them, I might still lost.
Aww~~ I miss them so much.
Anyway, it's time to back to my home!
My real home!
Daddy, mummy and brother!!!! Wuahahahahaha!
I miss you guys so much.
Gonna spent more time with u guys this time. =)
Enjoy..!

Wondering~~

State of The Arts!!!

Here it come!!

Hahahahaha!

Art of talents!!

Well, i'm thinking of wanna join or not.

I got no musicians, i gt no team, i gt nothing..

And i'm kind of phobia of the stage.. >_<

The reason that make me feel like joining is i want to upgrade myself and overcome my phobia.

But my time is limit, i need to complete everything in a short time.

Recording, find notes, prep, vocal training~ Bla Bla Bla~

And it was my exam start from 13th-19th.

Shall i focus on my study instead of this?

I dunno..

can somebody help me to decide..?

Please, let me know what to do if u guys saw my blog.. =)

Here come the nightmares..

The nightmares came again..

it's been so long that it never came in my sleep..

Been shock again and wake up few times..

Even when i take a nap, I'll dream it again..

Can it stopped..?

People said, dreams might mean something, might mean nothing..

And my dream always happen after few months ago..

And i don't hope it happen..

*sigh..

Just get out of my dream, nightmares..

Friendship.. =)

Kind of out of mood today..
Too much things just going on like that..
and i'm kind of too stress and don't know what to do..
And..
so do my best friend.
She just get into an emotional mood due to her 'case'..
We plan to jog, but end up, we bought junk food and ice-cream and we eat in the park.
Not much conversation is carry on..
But deep inside our heart, we know, our present there is just meant for each other.
Well, silent can be another way of communication.
Without talking, we can know what each other think and what each other want.
We try to cheer each other up after an hour, but yet, we failed.
Is alright my friend, both of us are just tired.
Allowed ourselves to be emo for awhile and leave the smile behind.
We know we'll be alright soon.
As God is always here for us. =)
U can move on..
Cause you are strong enough.
And I'll backup you here.
Together we, GAMBATEH!
So glad to have a friend like this.
Emotional day, but yet we gain a stronger friendship.

Dream!

There's once I talk about dream..

And yea, My DREAM IS TO BECOME A SINGER. =)

Never told before anyone.. but yet i think my mom know about this..
Well, living in a family which handling with business, never will I get a chance to get in to an entertainment life. Perhaps i'm just lucky that I doesn't need to life in a business life now. Nursing life is just an another choice for me to escape from it. Not my dream but yet I still have my passion to go for it. Help people who is in need, go for mission trip, go around the world helping the poor.. That's just all I wanna do.

There's once I watch a drama, is talking about a girl who can sing but yet she's phobia to sing in front of everyone. And finally she quit joining entertainment life and she decided to sing, any time any places she want. but just not in public. She said: 一个人可以很爱唱歌，但不一定要进入娱乐圈。像现在简简单单，无忧无虑的生活，也许会唱的更自由吧。。不必约束自己。。 Perhaps she's right. =)

I'm in nursing life now, and i shall continue with my life. Dream, might can't be come truth. This is the reality of life. And i got stage phobia, i cant sing alone in front of people. I just can sing with a group of people, like choir. So, just enjoy my singing in the church. =)

If one day, u guys saw me in any singing competition in tv program, that might be some miracle happen on me..

For now, nursing life is just here for me to complete it. =)

A Singing Competition

Today there's a singing competition in our college! It was just a mini competition and i never though that i'll be taking part in it!! With the encourage of choir leader, cg leader and some other friends from college or even old classmates, I decided to go for it. For the very 1st time, i have to choose and practice on my own. Luckily my cg leader, Joy is here to help me. =) after burning midnight oil, it's time to prepare another thing, MC script! For the very 1st time too, I'm gonna become MC. woohoo!! It's time for competition! OHHHHH! I'm feeking scare.. Even text my leader to make myself calm down. Well, their words does help. =) Step on my 1st step, walk to the middle of the stage, waiting for the music to start. Here comes the music.. =) Since it's duet as my friend decide to join last minute, yet still the feeling is different. But yet, at the bridge, i can hear my own voice! It's a melody! Not shaky voice! Yes! I done it! I can sing on the stage, i can sing well.. Well, believe in yourself really help! I'm not that nervous as usual. I just done it! Yeah! And the fear of going on stage, singing in front of people u dunno.. well, i think i've overcome part of it. =) Will continue to sing. =) Thank you for all the encouragement especially Joy, Robin and Emloyd! We just love to sing! =) And never quit from singing! More to learn from u guys too.. =)

08 City Harvest Church - Reign

This songs teach me how to sing in a different way. =)

Singing week. =)

Well, i'm off for few days and not going back hometown. *sigh.. I need part time job in order to survive. Well, RM400 cant help me survive in one month time as I got lots of expenses to do. So i'm working as Companion Nurse. It was night shift and this allowed me to have more time in the afternoon after i wake up from sleep. =) And what i do is practice singing. Non-stop! =) haha! I've been not practice after the 1st week of vocal class by Emloyd as I'm sick. And this week, i'm gonna buck up and done it more seriously. And my roommates are not in, so i can use the room freely as nobody will gonna stop me from singing. =) Practice hard as what he taught me, i realize that i can sing louder without stretching my vocal cord. WOW! Is a great thing! And i just keep on singing and singing and singing after the practice. I sing everywhere, i sing in my room, in the laundry while washing clothes, even sing when have outting with friends. =) My friends shout at me, can u stop singing? Opps.. I cant as i'm addicted on it. =P My mind just spin like a CD player. Woohoo! Friday before cg, while waiting alone at the bus stop for my member to reach, i just open my note book and sing all the praise and worship songs. Though of the car sounds could cover my voice, but yet still there's a motorcyclist turn his head and show his shock face! oh no.. perhaps too loud! And he might think that i'm crazy by singing there. Even after cg, my member start singing in the car. Here come the music and everyone just enjoy it! And today, Choir Team 3 is having practice as usual, I just sing without afraid of singing the wrong tune. And even my voice can reach Loyd(I think so as he show me a comfirmation eyes)! Wow! I'm singing better and better! And even Robin teach me today. What an honour! =) Well, i love u guys. I love Choir Team 3! u guys are just amazing. I'm more confident in singing right now, but yet more to be improve. =) Thx Shan Yong too by bringing me for the audition. And there's when My life change. =) Thx God for giving me this gift which allowing me sing. =)

Business..

My family is running business.. Most of them are on this field. And I'm the only one who start to join nursing.. Which is a totally different field from my family. Today i went to 'Breakthrough Session' by Yes Challenge. Is all about the how a young generation start to work on a business. And since is Y-Generation, is all about using internet. Most of the business will start to goes through online. Well, it comes out with different idea which might produce different of marketing. Well, it's not easy to build a business as there are lots of steps to go on. After the session end, we have lunch, then we sent Smun and Chin to church, then only we sent Sean back. when we reach, we just stop by and chat almost one hour. Well, it's kind of increase my knowledge while Sean start to talk bout business.. Wow! If he doesn't tell me, i might don't know that our land rent had increase 20% as in our pay is just increase 5%. And he said people who is rich will getting richer while people who is poor will getting poorer in future. And there's no more middle class people! What?! Well, I don't wish i getting poorer.. My family is still count on me in the future. Resources, food and another thing that is much more important thing in our life. What's the thing? Still wondering.. Well, everything is all business in this world. Is different type of service produce different type of business. Gaining my interest on business. =) It doesn't that hard. Just gotta twist your mind. =)

PARACHUTE BAND - LIVING RAIN (LIVE)

Recently addicted with this song. =)

Learn to be more patient than i used to be..

Tough day..
Yea, that's what i feel today.
Not much telling for it..
With all the emotional issues from other.
I handle it, with smile. =)
Settle most of it..
Probably some cant be solve.
But yet I tried..
Might be a tough period for me..
But nothing gonna stop me. =)
I've learned..
to be more patient than i am.
I just done it.
Well, this is the 1st step to Growth.
And it shall continue..
Running with You, Lord!

My life now.. =)

My college life was starting well till i found out it was so stressfull that i feel like quit it. and my ex interupt me by trying to gain back the relationship.. a broken friendship.. Everything is going down hill.. =( But i was lucky, cause my friend bring me to Emerge KL 2009. That was my 1st time i found out that a church can be so lively.. =) There's when i start to attend CG and service. The Word's of God touch my heart. And i start to trust God. My life is changing.. and I'm no longer emo. Everything goes smooth. =)

I start to serve in House of God too. I still remember there's once i went Neway with my leader, Wendee Lim. She said, her girl, u can sing. U can sing well and nice. =0 for the very first time i feel so encourage. I always lack of confident in singing. And when Joy asking us to join a ministry, without thinking, i said Choir Ministry. Well, i does wondering shall i go for it or not as i might not doing well. "never wait until you'r perfect till you wanna do it, it will be too late for it." So i sign up for choir ministry. Waiting for the phone calls and yet nobody call. By faith, i'm waiting.. Suddenly Shan Yong called me and said, this sat, there will be a choir audition, let's go for it.. I was like, WHAT?! How come..?! I left one day to prepare only.. and he said, Robin will be the judge. My mind pop out, oh.. that guy who know french.. Supposely will kind to girls..? Haha! Yet, i'm still nervous.. ~_~ 1st time singing in front of a person i dunno.. Scare!!! Well, at last i done it too. Love CHOIR TEAM 3! =)

CLT.. Next year.. I'm gonna go for it. I'll move on cause i cant always stay at the same level. I might taking the risk of loosing something. But i know, God will be here to guide me and lead me. Life will change and i don't know how it can be. I'll do my part and leave everything to God. So, W28 and friends, pls stay with me. I might not be that strong. Need support from u guys.. Choose to GROWTH!

How amazing my life can be change in one year by knowing God. My faith will continue.. =)

My past

Nothing to do today as i seriously have to take mc.. And i start thinking.. Thinking back to my past.. I still remember, my family always move house all around since i'm small due to my daddy have to work at different place. When i'm 5 yrs old, finally we stable down at Taiping as my sister have to start her kindergarden life. And i follow her to that kindergarde too. After 2 yrs of kindergarden life, i went for my primary school, and my dad went Ipoh for work. And that's when i start to be independent.. Cant imagine how hard could my mom life will be without a man in the house. And she have to be the man and women in the house. Well, we past through the hard time togather.. When i was 10, when everything is stable, my dad decide to move all of us to Ipoh. And sadly, i have to leave my grandparents and friends all behind. I have to re-bulid my new life again.. I'm so scare to be in a new place that even though i don't know cantonese, i still gotta survive there. most of my classmated laugh at me due to my koyak cantonese.. But i never quit to learn it. And finally by the end of my primary school, i manage to speak cantonese but yet not so good as others can. My secondary school life.. Is all about classrap! 5 years, start with it and end with it. Leading 5 years of 5 different class, is really a challenging life for me. I have to do most of the thing myself and even have to attend leadership camp. Well, yet sometimes as upon what our teachers request, i do have to do some 'bad' things and this does make people hate me. Sigh.. My friends.. I got no choice, kay. Anyway, there are still some friends that supposting behind which allowed me to move on.. =) What an amazing happening is, i got a new born baby to be take care off, which is my brother! That's when i start to cook and find my own transport for myself. School life.. tuition life.. and the rest of the time is taking care of him.. Even friends outting i've gotta reject.. Well, as he grow up, i got my chance to went out with my friends when i'm form 5.. Well, yet i enjoy my life. =) After graduate from secondary school.. is time to find a job. Cause i know, i need money to further my study. walking around my house area, trying to find a job.. and FINALLY, i found a job. After working for 2 months, it's time to find a college to further my study. And i'm still struggling as my family member not that supporting me to become a doctor. They prefer i take something about business.. And after going KL alone, trying to search for college, attend some fair to find some better idea of college life, yet i cant make a choice as everyone is talking with their own ideas instead of letting me speak out. I decided to continue working.. Until May, I resign my job and seriously call up my friends, asking how was their life is going on now. Finally, i make up my mind, i choose nursing. And after travell along Penang, Ipoh and KL which i dunno how i can make it even though i cant recognize the road well.. I decided to choose KL. Well, here's my college life start..

Happy National Day, Malaysia!

Well, as usual, i have posting even on this special public holiday. And though of wanna celebrate with my patients but myself was down with fever, sore throat and cough. Around 12noon, i feel so uncomfortable and i take my own temperature. It was 38.5~ Well, i though that's my temperature for a person who just wake up and stick on the lappy on her bed. But after i've bath with cold water, i rechecked my temperature. It was 39! oh no! by not trusting it, i rechecked again, it was still 39! In order to save money by not seeing doctor, i choose to seld-medicate. Eat 2 tablet of Panadol and that's it.. Running around, up and down the ward as usual. But today there's a patient try to run away.. Noooo!! Uncle pls sit down and wait for your family member.. trying to stop him from running away, he nearly push me down. Too weak to stop him.. luckily staff nurse came and help. And the drama finally end.. Phew.. I'm wonder why everytime when i'm sick or weak, there's must be such cases. Well, is alright, i've already get used with it. =) This is nursing life. But yet, we still sing some Malaysia well known songs like 'Keranamu' or 'Jalur gemilang' at nurse counter. After work, i really can't stand my fever which doesn't down even after taking medication. well, is time to see doctor.. I got no strength to continue write.. That's all for today..

To be continue..

Oh no! I forget how blogger work.

Wake up early in the morning try to manage and decorate my blog. And at the end, i just get a chat box. @_@ how come?! Cant get a new layout, cant manage this and that.. Well.. I need HELP! Anyway, i'm still luckily to post something out. Phew... perhaps i'll try later again. Struggling with my blog now.. And i'm gonna fix it. =) Yeah!

Blogging life.. =)

I saw Robin post his blog at FB. Haha! Finally he updated it.. Since January till now. @_@ I click on it and read it. When i saw what he write, it make me think of my blog. It's been so long that i quit blogging. I open back my blog, see through what i write before, i found out that I'm not that emo anymore. I even talk more to people. I can see how my life change after I came here. And how I transform to another better person since I know God.

With Robin encouragement, i 'build' a new blog. It doesn't matter if my family member found out or not, is my choice to choose to have my own blog back. =) I want everyone see how my life had change since i know God. And how good is my life with the presence of God. So i'll keep on writting..
The story of Siang Lin just begin.. =)

I love my FAMILY so much..

In sudden.. I saw my facebook appear Mama 70th birthday by Daniel Bkteoh. I click on it & i saw my family member. They went for my Grandma b'day dinner. A small dinner but so meaningfull. This is the 1st time they have the dress code dinner. =) But my sister, my two cousin who at Australia now & me was not there.

My dad! He's slimmer than last time.. Perhaps health is making a big alarm for him. I think i shall text him daily to ask him QUIT SMOKING! And he shave off most of his beard. Haha! look younger. I remember he used to used his beard to POKE my little brother. And my brother was really afraid of it. He'll run away when my dad trying to do that. My dad, haha! He always keep his feeling as how his daughter as. Well, I know he will miss us and even care much more than we ever though. He just don't wanna show it out. Dad, if u saw this, i wanna tell u, show out la! Haha! tak payah shy shy~ If u wanna ask how our life going on, just give me a call.. So that mom will not always be the translater. =) Btw, love u!

My mom! Wow! She dye her hair. =) & she seem to be doing facial?! How come her face look brighter in the picture? *blink blink Hmph, she might doing facial without calling me.. No!! Well, i just talk to her just now. She called.. A short conversation but yet I wish we got an unlimited credit to talk till we'r satisfied. Nvm, will call her more often to keep her updated bout my life here. =) and mom, i know my health is getting worst since i came here, I know i'm G6PD, with low immune system, i know how to take care myself. Don't worry yea.. =) and I miss your home cook food! It was simple but yes, it was awesome! I know u seldom cook nowadays coz nobody is at home but pls.. do cook when i'm back, k..

My brother! Oh no! I miss your fringe. But well, school rules, u have to cut it short. & your teeth! Haha! it grow! =) still remember when u lost your teeth, cant even eat & so emo on that day.. Well, he's growing up. =) i still remember u said this when i leave home for study, 'don't worry, i'll take care of dad & mom'. U'r just 6 yrs old that time! aww~ good brother.. U'r 8 yrs old now & i hope u still remember what u said forever. =)

My sister! Well.. U'r at KL but i seldom meet u up. We got our own life. I know u gonna see this soon, so noted to you, is good to see you transform to a better person. U've get rid off most of your bad habit, u be more patient than last time. & is good that we can talk like a sister.. Not like what we used to fight or quarrel when talk. And pls always contact mom & dad. They'll worry about u.

Well! Family! I really missed the time we sit and have breakfast, lunch and dinner togather. We hardly do it now. But nvm, we'll do it more often when I'm back. Miss u guys.. =') & let's plan for a family trip! woohoo! It's been few years we din have such plan anymore.. Stay healthy! Stay cheerfull! =) Once again! I really miss u all!