How brave am I!!

well, when I came back, for sure there'll be dinner with family member..
And once again, my parents quarrel again..
They quarrel about what to cook during Chinere New Year eve as this year is our family turn to cook.
It's just a small matter and they can't even talk properly..
Aiks.. and they complain each other to me..
I don't like this!!
I finish up my dinner and wondering, shall I speak up today?
If I didn't speak out today, for sure they will quarrel agn the following day..
Well, I was like can't even throw out my words!
Sial~
Scare to get scolded..
Anyway, I suddenly speak out, don't you two feel sienz by keeping on quarrel?(after I think back, to say like this is kind of RUDE!! Opps!)
Yet to continue..
Why don't you two speak up the problem.
Dad, u shall be more patient.
Mom, speak out as if u always keep how u feel, nobody know!
Oh man, after I said this, I saw my mom eyes are red.
Sry mom, but I just wanna fix this~
Nobody is perfect in this world.
But instead of seeing the negative point, why don't you two see from a positive point?
Think back why u two wanna quarrel?
And what for u two quarrel?

(*This part, I'm not manage to speak out.
~Dad, mom, why don't u two think back, what make u two fall in love, be together, get married, born 3 of us, past through all the hard season, and now live in a much more better life compare to last time? why don't u 2 sit and talk, what had been missing in your life? And make everything change? In a relationship, commitment and trust is very important. I hope time past and things will change. To be a better husband and wife! To be a model for 3 of us.)

Words been not speaking out.
But I hope, things will change to better than worst..
Love you dad and mom!
Just wanna let u know, I'm no longer the AH MEI who's a small kids and not mature.
I'm adult now, and I does take this serious cause we're a family..

Mixing feeling that carry on..

Hmph.. actually, not planning to write this out but well..
see what it come out at the end.

Last Sunday! what a super duper tired once I woke up!
imagine slept by 3am, woke up by 3.30am to answer a call, and when he notice I'm sleeping, shut it off.
And randomly by 4am, he call again and said can u ask Andy to open the door, I wanna talk to him!
Hello! Ethan SOH SHAN YONG! U know I'm sleeping and i need to get up earlier, right? why don't u call others? >_<
Slept back after I open the door.
But in 2 hours time i wake up agn, shock by dream! hmph~ I wonder, if ever that dream come truth, I dunno what to do.
Cause at the beginning of the year, I know I no longer love you anymore, the relatiohship doesn't work out if only one hand is clapping. =)
So give up and that's it!
You'll be like my bro, my buddies. haha!
Is great cause friendship is what I gain! woohoo~

This year, Joy promote us. To train ourself to become a leader.
Though this year is not CLT, but we'll learn thing straight from leader.
We'll be follow leader and attend leader meetings for 6 months.
I'm so happy for it! cause it's in a different way.
I'm afraid to work on it as I still feel my knowledge is so little compare to others.
But it will be another great time to learn things in it!
Believe myself that I can do it..
I've prayed by David..
And what he said does increase my confident..
Is time to move on to another level!

Jin CHong sermon does inspire me too!
How to become a counter cultural disciple?
1.We need to KNOW THE WORD

2. We need to KNOW YOUR IDENTITY

3.We need to KNOW YOUR PRIORITY

We need to know the word of God in order to build up ourself and gain faith! We need to know our identity in order to serve God. We need to know our priority in order to know what is important in our life!
Be organize in 2011, be strong in 2011!
Build the relationship between God and us!
Learn to seek and draw near to Him!
And not forget of this year theme!
Think for others more!
There's another feeling in it. And it can't be written out..
Well! It's gonna be the great year though! =)

And today! after talking to few friends..
I gain more mixing feeling! haha!
what la me..
Well..
Christianity~
Emotional~
Thinking of the past~
Fear in my heart~
it cant be express out! but yet!
I wanna said~
I need a hug!
that's what i need for today!
Cause after today, it will no longer stay in me! =)
I wanna learn how to control my emotion.
I wanna learn to face the fear in my heart!
And i believe!
I can do it!
Oh yea!

Knock knock! time to sleep~
What a mixing blog! haha!
WEIRD~
Good NIGHT world! =)

A drama!

I've watch a drama without knowing the name!
This is the very 1st time..
well, I spent some of my holiday doing this..
It's an Taiwan movie, act by Taiwan and China actor.
Talking bout freedom, love, photoshooting, life..
Well, it's important to have a time that you could do something that you wanna do!
So do I! =)
perhaps after this 3 years course end..
I wanna spent some time for what i really want for.. =)
Well, everything take times!
And I'm gonna work it out.. =)
Never give up!!

And i meet up my ex when i went back Ipoh this time..
I take it easy and just spent 1 hour with him..
well, his life is changing..
for a better one..
Is great.. But the only thing u gotta do is..
To let go..
Sry to said, there's no U-turn in our relationship..
It doesn't work out..
What had end means end yea..
Jia you! u can do it!

When I went back, I told Torng Eei that I just met up with my ex.
She suddenly emo and say, how wish I'm dating now. or have a bf..
Friend!
Common!
Knock Knock!
Not getting attach is alright..
Your time havent reach yet.. =)
Being single is fun!
Enjoy life with family and friends..
spent less $..
Less problem..
No worries..
Haha! see! so much advantage!
God will put a right person in your life..
Sooner or later..
Not in rush!
If not u might can't find the Mr Right! =)

5 days off! Well!! life is all this about! =)

Well! my life is so lifeless without internet!
I admit!
I can't survive without internet!
well~
yet I got no choice..
Is alright..
Cause it make me spent more time with my family and friends..
And my PLANTS VS ZOMBIES! haha! I've manage to finish it up.. =P

In between this 5 days of holiday, many things fly over my mind!
so much unpleasant situation like my parents quarrel, seeing friends without a stable life.. bla bla bla~
Is it because of I've become a Christian, I'll wish their life will be more stable and constant?
Is it that I'll wish they'r same as me, pray and live in a Christianity life?
Hmph~ Perhaps yes!

What shall I do to help my parents to gain back the relationship that they used to have? to be close, loving each other instead of quarrel and not believing like what they have now..

What shall I do to my sister who had a Malay BF? From what she wrote in a blog, I just can't feel that the guy is really care about her.. Shall I give her a wake up call or just leave it..? Hey sis, if u read this, common! U shall open up your eyes! If a psn who really care and love you, he shall not hurt you like that! You deserve a better one! And don't forget, once u step in Islam, there's no U-turn.. well, is up to you.. I hope you really choose a right guy!

I meet up an old primary classmates on sat when I went Ebox with my friends. I can't believe a guy who is so kind, nice, polite, good will turn out in earlier marriage life(perhaps accident happen)! I still remember when I 1st saw him and we become friend, we talk and sit together. I can't believe that he'll change a lot~ He's now married, got a daughter with an unstable job. How wish that I can help him.. Well! friends! Jia You! All the best in your life~ Don't quit so fast as your family need you! and your dream! don't ever forget!

And I'm so amaze by my friends! they are good in singing man! They can sing high pitch even they are guys! I having cough and can't sing high pitch and they back up for me!! Oh gosh!!! and they even sing sampat song and nobody! haha! really entertain by them! How great if I'm not phobia to mic? when then might is in front of me, I just cant sing well.. and I sing softer and softer.. even they scold me by saying "can sing but don't wanna sing"! aiks.. friends, sry but I shall let u guys know that I'm phobia to mic.. How to overcome it? Help!! I shall overcome it! But how?

Errr.. much more to write but yet! it's gonna be mass up if i put it in all here!
take a break and i shall continue the next one.. =)