Mixing feeling that carry on..

Hmph.. actually, not planning to write this out but well..
see what it come out at the end.

Last Sunday! what a super duper tired once I woke up!
imagine slept by 3am, woke up by 3.30am to answer a call, and when he notice I'm sleeping, shut it off.
And randomly by 4am, he call again and said can u ask Andy to open the door, I wanna talk to him!
Hello! Ethan SOH SHAN YONG! U know I'm sleeping and i need to get up earlier, right? why don't u call others? >_<
Slept back after I open the door.
But in 2 hours time i wake up agn, shock by dream! hmph~ I wonder, if ever that dream come truth, I dunno what to do.
Cause at the beginning of the year, I know I no longer love you anymore, the relatiohship doesn't work out if only one hand is clapping. =)
So give up and that's it!
You'll be like my bro, my buddies. haha!
Is great cause friendship is what I gain! woohoo~

This year, Joy promote us. To train ourself to become a leader.
Though this year is not CLT, but we'll learn thing straight from leader.
We'll be follow leader and attend leader meetings for 6 months.
I'm so happy for it! cause it's in a different way.
I'm afraid to work on it as I still feel my knowledge is so little compare to others.
But it will be another great time to learn things in it!
Believe myself that I can do it..
I've prayed by David..
And what he said does increase my confident..
Is time to move on to another level!

Jin CHong sermon does inspire me too!
How to become a counter cultural disciple?
1.We need to KNOW THE WORD

2. We need to KNOW YOUR IDENTITY

3.We need to KNOW YOUR PRIORITY

We need to know the word of God in order to build up ourself and gain faith! We need to know our identity in order to serve God. We need to know our priority in order to know what is important in our life!
Be organize in 2011, be strong in 2011!
Build the relationship between God and us!
Learn to seek and draw near to Him!
And not forget of this year theme!
Think for others more!
There's another feeling in it. And it can't be written out..
Well! It's gonna be the great year though! =)

And today! after talking to few friends..
I gain more mixing feeling! haha!
what la me..
Well..
Christianity~
Emotional~
Thinking of the past~
Fear in my heart~
it cant be express out! but yet!
I wanna said~
I need a hug!
that's what i need for today!
Cause after today, it will no longer stay in me! =)
I wanna learn how to control my emotion.
I wanna learn to face the fear in my heart!
And i believe!
I can do it!
Oh yea!

Knock knock! time to sleep~
What a mixing blog! haha!
WEIRD~
Good NIGHT world! =)