was about to write life and death..
but some how, not today..
Ask yourself today..
when was your last real smile from the bottom of your heart?
when was your last relief?
Everything was about the heart matter..
Bible said a lot of thing about the heart of the man.
God knows all of our hearts, “For you alone know the hearts of all the sons of men.” (I Kings 8:39)
The question is do you and I know our own heart?
People had been questioned about themselves throughout the year.
And I believe me and you did the same too..
When the Bible speaks of the human heart it is speaking of the thinking of a man, a man’s will, a man’s emotions or feelings, a man’s conscience, or any given combinations of these.
(1) The heart is the thinking aspect of man. “For as he thinks in his heart, so is he.” (Prov. 23:7)
Jesus asks, “Why do you think evil in your hearts?” (Matt. 9:4 )
“For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts.” (Matt. 15:19 )
“If that evil servant says in his heart, ‘My master is delaying his coming.’” (Matt. 24:48) The evil servant says this in his heart because that is what he is thinking.
“But Mary kept all these things and pondered them in her heart.” (Luke 2:19)
Mary thought about these things and mulled them over in her mind.
One could go on and find verse after verse in the Bible teaching the same thing about the heart being the place of thought, reasoning, and understanding within man.
Sometime people will think: 'Am I responsible to what am I thinking about?'
The Bible answers in the affirmative.
“For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace. Because the carnal mind is enmity against God; for it is not subject to the law of God, nor indeed can be.” (Rom. 8:6 )
“Whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy–meditate on these things.” (Phil. 4:8)
TO BE CONTINUE... =)
Friday, March 30, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Take me with YOU!
Today I went Air Asia for a health screening event..
On my way, when we almost reach Air Asia, I look out from the van.
And I saw..
The airplane fly off~
Somehow, I just wish, I'm in there..
Need a holiday to go off from everything here..
Fly off to another place which nobody know, and enjoy the moment..
Too much thing to be taken..
And it's time to let go~
God is with me through this season..
I know that..
But still, it's the heart matter..
Got to get through it..
And life moves on~
Lastly, I wanna SAY:
On my way, when we almost reach Air Asia, I look out from the van.
And I saw..
The airplane fly off~
Somehow, I just wish, I'm in there..Need a holiday to go off from everything here..
Fly off to another place which nobody know, and enjoy the moment..
Too much thing to be taken..
And it's time to let go~
God is with me through this season..
I know that..
But still, it's the heart matter..
Got to get through it..
And life moves on~
Lastly, I wanna SAY:
Monday, March 5, 2012
God is GOOD!
Is March!
This few weeks, there's so much flashback and to come upon and see who I am today, I really want to thanks God for what He had done in my life.
Back to the day when I first was choose to become an intern. I was excited in the same time, I'm sad. I know there might be a crack in friendship, I might turn out busy, I might get myself into the busy life, yet I have faith to step for it.
Some how, things doesn't go as smooth as how I want..
Things started to goes wrong..
There's once I got to lead praise and worship on the same week in 2 cell group.
The first one in Wen Dee's cell group, I feel that I've done so badly and I can't even feel the God's presence. And the next day was my cell group, I just can't overcome my feelings that I think I've ruin everything. End up I'm crying and need Joy to help me to continue the leading the P&W.
From that day onwards, I don't feel like singing anymore, I can't find satisfaction and feel that my singing is bad. I started to stop getting the chance to lead P&W, wishing no duty for me to lead P&W in cell group. And due the busy time we had, chance to have cell group is getting lesser too. I feel so 'oh yeah, no need to lead' at this side, and 'no, Siang Lin, this is not the right attitude to serve God' at the other side. The mix feelings make me walk further far from God. I serve in Choir with the wrong heart attitude too.
Things get worst when I realize I'm not gonna graduate and become a leader. I was asking God, why? Why things just go wrong? I serve in church, I follow Your will, I try my best to attend leader's meeting and even find time to meet the Saturday meeting still I got no time for it.. I drop into disappointment. From that day, I take things easily and have the 'tidak-apa' attitude.
But God never give up on me. He hint me in dreams one day. I've dreamt that I was on the stage with few of my choirs member, holding the mic leading P&W. I woke up in shock and think, will this happen? My 1st answer appear in mind was NO!! I don't believe this will happen as I've lost confident on singing or leading.
Still, God didn't stop helping me. He allowed my Facebook fill with videos that composed by my Facebook friends. I know this is funny but still the videos does inspire me. Then I start thinking, where's the 'FIRE' I got last time..? where's my dream go..? where's the pathway that God guide me in..? I started to listen to P&W songs, start singing and practice. I started to pray more too! And my 'FIRE' is started to burn.
When Pastor Kevin preach the sermon, 'PRAY'. More things to flash back to me.. My life is bad when I first came to here but God lead me to a better one. And now I should do more to have a greater life! Why should I stop and quite while facing down time? God had spoken to me that day, Siang Lin, be more brave and step one more step forward, you've been rest for a long time, is time to get back on track! And on Saturday night itself, I've think a lot and decide, yes, AM NOT GONNA GIVE UP!
Believe in God is so amazing and I'm feel bless with it. Last Wednesday, I get a chance to sing on stage as a BV and thanks to Joy for 'pushing' me for it!! I was wonder, "should I or not? can I sing well with mic? The mic!!! I can't sing with mic!!". Although I'm super 'GAN JIONG' but I just feel like doing it! It's time for breakthrough! Everyone in my choir team encourage each other and we did it well! =) All glory to GOD! And we even get a chance to serve in Leader's meeting on the coming Tues!
And next of course, I get a chance to lead P&W in cell group yesterday!!! Amazingly~ I fear is gone and although I koyakz in some part, but still I glad I've done it! (P.S. haven't get feedback from Joy yet). More practice to go for and more things to be improve, God is good!!
Thanks God for never letting me go alone. It's a lesson for me to learn in the past season and I believe in this brand new season, He gonna walk with me too!
This few weeks, there's so much flashback and to come upon and see who I am today, I really want to thanks God for what He had done in my life.
Back to the day when I first was choose to become an intern. I was excited in the same time, I'm sad. I know there might be a crack in friendship, I might turn out busy, I might get myself into the busy life, yet I have faith to step for it.
Some how, things doesn't go as smooth as how I want..
Things started to goes wrong..
There's once I got to lead praise and worship on the same week in 2 cell group.
The first one in Wen Dee's cell group, I feel that I've done so badly and I can't even feel the God's presence. And the next day was my cell group, I just can't overcome my feelings that I think I've ruin everything. End up I'm crying and need Joy to help me to continue the leading the P&W.
From that day onwards, I don't feel like singing anymore, I can't find satisfaction and feel that my singing is bad. I started to stop getting the chance to lead P&W, wishing no duty for me to lead P&W in cell group. And due the busy time we had, chance to have cell group is getting lesser too. I feel so 'oh yeah, no need to lead' at this side, and 'no, Siang Lin, this is not the right attitude to serve God' at the other side. The mix feelings make me walk further far from God. I serve in Choir with the wrong heart attitude too.
Things get worst when I realize I'm not gonna graduate and become a leader. I was asking God, why? Why things just go wrong? I serve in church, I follow Your will, I try my best to attend leader's meeting and even find time to meet the Saturday meeting still I got no time for it.. I drop into disappointment. From that day, I take things easily and have the 'tidak-apa' attitude.
But God never give up on me. He hint me in dreams one day. I've dreamt that I was on the stage with few of my choirs member, holding the mic leading P&W. I woke up in shock and think, will this happen? My 1st answer appear in mind was NO!! I don't believe this will happen as I've lost confident on singing or leading.
Still, God didn't stop helping me. He allowed my Facebook fill with videos that composed by my Facebook friends. I know this is funny but still the videos does inspire me. Then I start thinking, where's the 'FIRE' I got last time..? where's my dream go..? where's the pathway that God guide me in..? I started to listen to P&W songs, start singing and practice. I started to pray more too! And my 'FIRE' is started to burn.
When Pastor Kevin preach the sermon, 'PRAY'. More things to flash back to me.. My life is bad when I first came to here but God lead me to a better one. And now I should do more to have a greater life! Why should I stop and quite while facing down time? God had spoken to me that day, Siang Lin, be more brave and step one more step forward, you've been rest for a long time, is time to get back on track! And on Saturday night itself, I've think a lot and decide, yes, AM NOT GONNA GIVE UP!
Believe in God is so amazing and I'm feel bless with it. Last Wednesday, I get a chance to sing on stage as a BV and thanks to Joy for 'pushing' me for it!! I was wonder, "should I or not? can I sing well with mic? The mic!!! I can't sing with mic!!". Although I'm super 'GAN JIONG' but I just feel like doing it! It's time for breakthrough! Everyone in my choir team encourage each other and we did it well! =) All glory to GOD! And we even get a chance to serve in Leader's meeting on the coming Tues!
And next of course, I get a chance to lead P&W in cell group yesterday!!! Amazingly~ I fear is gone and although I koyakz in some part, but still I glad I've done it! (P.S. haven't get feedback from Joy yet). More practice to go for and more things to be improve, God is good!!
Thanks God for never letting me go alone. It's a lesson for me to learn in the past season and I believe in this brand new season, He gonna walk with me too!
Thursday, July 7, 2011
我的生活
很多东西都自己扛。。
也习惯了这样的我。。
尝试和人分担。。
可是还是没办法说出口。。
坚强是我的个性。。
习惯了。。
所以再怎么辛苦。。
还是可以熬过的。。
=）
雨过还是会天晴。。
这就是我。。
看到身边的朋友不行了。。
想帮他们。。
可是因为太容易了解一个人。。
反而要帮也要用对方想要的方法去帮。。
别人开心，我就开心。。
所以，你们要过得好好的。
=）
今天突然好想家人。
我的表达能力不好。。
可是，希望他们知道。。
我爱你们！！
也愿意扛起家里的负担！
=）
想你们，就把照片拿出来看。。
笑一笑，希望你们过得很好。
突然想起一个人。
他就像哥哥一样。
不懂他过得好吗？
都一直在忙。。
生活中有亲情和友情，我就满足了。。
知足常乐。
晚安。。 =）
也习惯了这样的我。。
尝试和人分担。。
可是还是没办法说出口。。
坚强是我的个性。。
习惯了。。
所以再怎么辛苦。。
还是可以熬过的。。
=）
雨过还是会天晴。。
这就是我。。
看到身边的朋友不行了。。
想帮他们。。
可是因为太容易了解一个人。。
反而要帮也要用对方想要的方法去帮。。
别人开心，我就开心。。
所以，你们要过得好好的。
=）
今天突然好想家人。
我的表达能力不好。。
可是，希望他们知道。。
我爱你们！！
也愿意扛起家里的负担！
=）
想你们，就把照片拿出来看。。
笑一笑，希望你们过得很好。
突然想起一个人。
他就像哥哥一样。
不懂他过得好吗？
都一直在忙。。
生活中有亲情和友情，我就满足了。。
知足常乐。
晚安。。 =）
A broken chain to a chain.
Question for today.. 
How can a broken chain turn into a chain?
Can it work out?
Is it possible?
And here comes the words.. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.. =)
So, do
And
Have
And
So, we'll see how everything work out. =)
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Sick day... SICK SICK SICK.. @_@
Argh!!!
Why...
Nose SUPER ITCHY..
But can't sneeze..
This FACE appear few times!!
Next!!
HaChoo HaChoo HaChoo..
Finally!!!
Oh yea!!!
Feel better..
But end up..
I keep on SNEEZING!!!!
Trying hard to do my journal with the strength I have..
Next!! Tissues Tissues!!!!
And I finish up 1 BOX!!!
U guys must be.. WHAT?!
ONE BOX?!!!??
Yes... I just finished up 1 BOX of TISSUES!!!!
@_@
And I found this online!!!
Once the psn pulled out the tissue, it will HACHOO..
So cute!!
So.. Can it replace me?
Hahaha!!
And next..
I wish I get this!!!
Non-stop supplyer!!
From the magical hat!!
Perhaps.. In my DREAM!! >_<
Got to get some tissues TOMORROW!!!
OUT OF STOCK!!
I think this was my 1st time getting such a worst flu..
Well, I seldom get flu as cough will attack me more.
And this time.. @_@
Fine, I surrender..
But SOON, oh yea SOON!!
My immune system gonna KILL all of you!!
Wuahahaha!!
*Opps, sry buddy, gonna postponed our dinner to another day.
Too tired to go out for dinner. Paiseh paiseh!
Why...
Nose SUPER ITCHY..
But can't sneeze..
This FACE appear few times!!
Next!!
HaChoo HaChoo HaChoo..
Finally!!!
Oh yea!!!
Feel better..
But end up..
I keep on SNEEZING!!!!
Trying hard to do my journal with the strength I have..
Next!! Tissues Tissues!!!!
And I finish up 1 BOX!!!
U guys must be.. WHAT?!
ONE BOX?!!!??
Yes... I just finished up 1 BOX of TISSUES!!!!
@_@
And I found this online!!!
Once the psn pulled out the tissue, it will HACHOO..
So cute!!
So.. Can it replace me?
Hahaha!!
And next..
I wish I get this!!!
Non-stop supplyer!!
From the magical hat!!
Perhaps.. In my DREAM!! >_<
Got to get some tissues TOMORROW!!!
OUT OF STOCK!!
I think this was my 1st time getting such a worst flu..
Well, I seldom get flu as cough will attack me more.
And this time.. @_@
Fine, I surrender..
But SOON, oh yea SOON!!
My immune system gonna KILL all of you!!
Wuahahaha!!
*Opps, sry buddy, gonna postponed our dinner to another day.
Too tired to go out for dinner. Paiseh paiseh!
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
2nd day of semester+Movie day!
today is TUESDAY..
And it was like...
Oh man..
Start from ystd, they dump us mountain of assignment, procedure to be done, this and that..
And today presentation, tutor keep on naging naging naging naging naging x10000000000000
We was like..
Har... why... why... why... why...
It was just 2nd day of class and they give us the stress and scold us like..
88 of us totally DOWN after that..
Busy, stressfull, perhaps get scolded and nagging semester just began..
oh yea!
Go go go!!
Today we have presentation about Central Nervous System.
Next, Musculoskeletal System.. And terminology of epidemiology..
But I can't focus much on it..
Stomachache with period pain..
It was SO IRRITATING..
And I started to feel tired and sleepy..
Probably.. Lost to much of blood..
The worst part is HERE COME THE MORNING SINUS!!
My nose BLOCK!
I was like.. On man..
Why I'm so weak?!
Lunch break, meet Jack at Hospital Cafeteria.
So good to see him..
But he came with a SLEEPY face.
Haha!
He told us he slept in the car cause he couldn't find a doctor.
And we talk and talk and talk.
As usual, Smun will kacau him.
And here's the laughter start!!
XD
Thx God for him to being with us today, even though it's just a short 30 min lunch.
Bring CHEER to us.
=)
After class, take a 15min power nap, then went out with Smun, Chin and Torng.
It's been some time I didn't hang out with them.
But, here comes.. HARRY WONG.
I was like..
Ai yo..?!
WHY he's here?!
It suppose to be GIRLS OUTTING!!!
Wookie~
I'm abit besong but chill~
Got to accept that he and Smun is SUPER EXTRA POWERFULL UHU GUM!!
Put them aside and here's the excitement START!!
WOOYEA!!
WATCHED TRANSFORMER 3 TODAY!!!
SO COOL SO AWESOME SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO AMAZING!!!
=)
Of course, my favourite BUMBLEBEE!!
And... hehe..
This Handsome guy~
=P
Though he's not the main character in this movie..
But STILL, okie, he's handsome!
WHAT'S HIS NAME?
Hmph..
Anyway, I seldom compliment people..
But still hahahahaha!!
Oh yea!!
Love his SMILE! =P
But here come the discomfort..
I know.. I'm having fever..
Still I'm there watching Transformer.
I think I'm crazy..
yet, this is the only day that I can spent with them.
So this sacrifies bring Joy and Laughter to them!
=)
Oh happy day HAPPY DAY!
And now, time to sleep.
Sharing been done here..
need to cure my headache and fever by getting enough sleep.
Nitez WORLD. =)
*Miss my mom who use to give me nasal spray daily to prevent my sinus problem. Yet now, there's no nasal spray anymore. Miss home because that's the place that I want to rest and hide when I'm weak.. But yet I can't go back.
Is okie, pray and rest, God will heal me soon!! And no longer that weak and tired! =)
And it was like...
Oh man..
Start from ystd, they dump us mountain of assignment, procedure to be done, this and that..
And today presentation, tutor keep on naging naging naging naging naging x10000000000000
We was like..
Har... why... why... why... why...
It was just 2nd day of class and they give us the stress and scold us like..
88 of us totally DOWN after that..
Busy, stressfull, perhaps get scolded and nagging semester just began..
oh yea!
Go go go!!
Today we have presentation about Central Nervous System.
Next, Musculoskeletal System.. And terminology of epidemiology..
But I can't focus much on it..
Stomachache with period pain..
It was SO IRRITATING..
And I started to feel tired and sleepy..
Probably.. Lost to much of blood..
The worst part is HERE COME THE MORNING SINUS!!
My nose BLOCK!
I was like.. On man..
Why I'm so weak?!
Lunch break, meet Jack at Hospital Cafeteria.
So good to see him..
But he came with a SLEEPY face.
Haha!
He told us he slept in the car cause he couldn't find a doctor.
And we talk and talk and talk.
As usual, Smun will kacau him.
And here's the laughter start!!
XD
Thx God for him to being with us today, even though it's just a short 30 min lunch.
Bring CHEER to us.
=)
After class, take a 15min power nap, then went out with Smun, Chin and Torng.
It's been some time I didn't hang out with them.
But, here comes.. HARRY WONG.
I was like..
Ai yo..?!
WHY he's here?!
It suppose to be GIRLS OUTTING!!!
Wookie~
I'm abit besong but chill~
Got to accept that he and Smun is SUPER EXTRA POWERFULL UHU GUM!!
Put them aside and here's the excitement START!!
WOOYEA!!
WATCHED TRANSFORMER 3 TODAY!!!
SO COOL SO AWESOME SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO AMAZING!!!
=)
Of course, my favourite BUMBLEBEE!!
And... hehe..
This Handsome guy~
=P
Though he's not the main character in this movie..
But STILL, okie, he's handsome!
WHAT'S HIS NAME?
Hmph..
Anyway, I seldom compliment people..
But still hahahahaha!!
Oh yea!!
Love his SMILE! =P
But here come the discomfort..
I know.. I'm having fever..
Still I'm there watching Transformer.
I think I'm crazy..
yet, this is the only day that I can spent with them.
So this sacrifies bring Joy and Laughter to them!
=)
Oh happy day HAPPY DAY!
And now, time to sleep.
Sharing been done here..
need to cure my headache and fever by getting enough sleep.
Nitez WORLD. =)
*Miss my mom who use to give me nasal spray daily to prevent my sinus problem. Yet now, there's no nasal spray anymore. Miss home because that's the place that I want to rest and hide when I'm weak.. But yet I can't go back.
Is okie, pray and rest, God will heal me soon!! And no longer that weak and tired! =)
Sunday, July 3, 2011
My SunDay! =)
Wake up early in the morning, I was like...
ARGH~
Why am I so freeking TIRED!
Don't even feel like moving..
Not even feel like getting off the bed..
Call Torng Eei asking she wanna go church or not as ystd nitez she didn't answer me.
But she didn't pick up..
Next, text Chin to find her as they are neighbours..
End up... Teeheee...
I fall asleep AGAIN.
Anyway, Smun and Torng decided to go Pulau Ketam.
And yea..
Didn't let me know pun...... =_=
I was like...
Why didn't ask me to go along with u guys?
I need a break off too..
But still..
after settle up myself, I CHILL~
Is okie..
Lots of thing had change..
I can't expect things will be as same as last time..
Still..
Probably I'm not doing my best..
Hmph..
I shall do more..
And yea... I don't even know what I'm typing now.
Nvm, the feelings is something that can't be type out perhaps..
Okie, next CHURCHING time!!
=)
Pastor Rob Buckingham!!
Another annointing man is here in City Harvest Church!!
Woohoo~
If u guys miss out his sermon, save up and buy his audio! =)
Oh something funny!!
=)
As time pass, everyone get into technology world, which people called it Y-generation with multiple technology stuff coming out.
So if u guys are 'craving' for iPad.
Nah, here u go..
If Jack get have it, grandpa can have it too..
=P
*THUMBS UP!!
And IF U GUYS WANT iPad2
Don't worry.
Here u go..
With cucumber style!
Wuahahaha!
Haha! See!
And I can get it FREE too~
FROM HOSPITAL~
Buaahahahahaha!
Wookiee! Blogging DONE!!
I need to focus back.
STUDY for PRE-TEST!!
SO MUCH!!
Okie okie..
STUDY TIME!! =)
Okie, ONE LAST THING!!
I need to CUT my hair!!
ARGH!!
Befor it turn to this..
Or this!!!
ARGH~
Why am I so freeking TIRED!
Don't even feel like moving..
Not even feel like getting off the bed..
Call Torng Eei asking she wanna go church or not as ystd nitez she didn't answer me.
But she didn't pick up..
Next, text Chin to find her as they are neighbours..
End up... Teeheee...
I fall asleep AGAIN.
Anyway, Smun and Torng decided to go Pulau Ketam.
And yea..
Didn't let me know pun...... =_=
I was like...
Why didn't ask me to go along with u guys?I need a break off too..
But still..
after settle up myself, I CHILL~
Is okie..
Lots of thing had change..
I can't expect things will be as same as last time..
Still..
Probably I'm not doing my best..
Hmph..
I shall do more..
And yea... I don't even know what I'm typing now.
Nvm, the feelings is something that can't be type out perhaps..
Okie, next CHURCHING time!!
=)
Pastor Rob Buckingham!!
Another annointing man is here in City Harvest Church!!
Woohoo~
If u guys miss out his sermon, save up and buy his audio! =)
Oh something funny!!
=)
As time pass, everyone get into technology world, which people called it Y-generation with multiple technology stuff coming out.
So if u guys are 'craving' for iPad.
Nah, here u go..
If Jack get have it, grandpa can have it too..
=P
*THUMBS UP!!And IF U GUYS WANT iPad2
Don't worry.
Here u go..
With cucumber style!
Wuahahaha!
Haha! See!And I can get it FREE too~
FROM HOSPITAL~
Buaahahahahaha!
Wookiee! Blogging DONE!!
I need to focus back.
STUDY for PRE-TEST!!
SO MUCH!!
Okie okie..
STUDY TIME!! =)
Okie, ONE LAST THING!!
I need to CUT my hair!!
ARGH!!
Befor it turn to this..
Or this!!!
Friday, June 24, 2011
Worst day.. perhaps.. ever!
I failed..
yea.. failed...
=(
T_T
I'm not stress..
I can comfirm I'm not stress..
It's just the feeling that..
But everyone keep on said..
hey, u got to say no if u can't handle so much thing..
hey, is okie, u try your best, don't feel stress..
hey... .....
Just want to let u guys know..
I'm not stress..
I'm just facing the biggest 'enemy' i ever have..
I don't know how to overcome it..
I don't even know how to handle it..
Crap~~
*sigh~
Sry for making everything worst..
Sry for not leading well..
Sry for ruin everything..
I just can't continue at that moment..
Tears.. just keep flowing..
Voice off..
and perhaps..
I don't even know what to do..
God, pls take away my 'enemy'.
I don't like it...
I don't even like who I am now..
yea.. failed...
=(
T_T
I'm not stress..
I can comfirm I'm not stress..
It's just the feeling that..
But everyone keep on said..
hey, u got to say no if u can't handle so much thing..
hey, is okie, u try your best, don't feel stress..
hey... .....
Just want to let u guys know..
I'm not stress..
I'm just facing the biggest 'enemy' i ever have..
I don't know how to overcome it..
I don't even know how to handle it..
Crap~~
*sigh~
Sry for making everything worst..
Sry for not leading well..
Sry for ruin everything..
I just can't continue at that moment..
Tears.. just keep flowing..
Voice off..
and perhaps..
I don't even know what to do..
God, pls take away my 'enemy'.
I don't like it...
I don't even like who I am now..
Thursday, June 23, 2011
悲しい
今日..私の一日失望で終わると悲しい...泣きそう私はちょうど感じる..私はそれを行うことはできません..そして私はそれが最悪のように..どのように..？それを克服するためにはどうすれば。私は本当に何をすべきかわからない..私は自分自身を伝えるに保つ自信が失われてもOK、それは私の初めてだな原因です。しかし、まだ..気持ちはまだ私を圧倒..神様、私はこれがあなたがそれを通過したい季節知っている..しかし、どのように私は自分の強さを見つけることができますか？私はそのような状況になる..多分..無力な..
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
....I don't know what's the title for this.. RANDOM~
Today right after posting..
I went back and perhaps.. Rest while try to msn with Joy.
And I fall asleep while waiting for her reply.
Aiks..
When I woke up, Smun is right in front of me.
Oh yea! We need to sent Andrew and George back S'pore.
Sial~
Rush out and I realize..
They not even reach Kelana LRT yet.
While waiting, we ate some malay kuih and we talk crab..
Yea, crab..
and we even sing..
and see the train passby one by one..
Some how.. This appear in my mind..
We might can't as crazy n sampat as last time..
things been change just like the train passed by..
So fast and it seems to be season to season..
We need to be mature enough..
And be more serious..
That's what everyone want to see in us, perhaps?
And I think.. they never see.. that we already change A LOT..
And our smile.. Fade.. Just like that..
6.15pm.. Phew!!
Luckily on time before they went off.
And SAW Andrew hair..
Hahahahaha! Like...
okie..
DRAGON!!
I should take a picture.
Anyway, so sad to sent them off..
not really spending a lot of time with them..
But still, appreciate their presence.
Shall see them SOON.
=)
After that, went midvalley with Smun, cause there'r FREE SHUTTLE.
XD
1st time in it..
Pretty awesome, and we no need to pay!!
*Save COST.
And we spent time.. wonder around.. for drinks and food.
Oh yea! get to drink fruit juice and eat meats!!
=)
Fullfill my stomach.
Teehee~
went back quite earlier with BUS. Wow!
*Save MORE COST.
Reach hostel...
Heard rumors agn..
aiks..
And heard argument..
Hmph..
1st, they don't wanna allowed me to lead..
And now blame me for not helping..
And there, argue cause they'r not teaching well..
And there, attandance super low..
Since when a cheerleading team.. Become like this..
Aiks..
How!?
Should I go for it.. perhaps stuck myself in trouble?!
And yea, maybe miracles change and..
I don't know..
how..
Gonna lead some part of the CG this week..
Not one but 2!!
Leading P&W, games, offering....
I'm......
Choir..
BV?!
Things.. spinning in brain..
Need some one to talk to..
But.. where's eveyone?!
Is okie..
Things can be solve..
I just got to find ways and strength..
God!! Help~
I went back and perhaps.. Rest while try to msn with Joy.
And I fall asleep while waiting for her reply.
Aiks..
When I woke up, Smun is right in front of me.
Oh yea! We need to sent Andrew and George back S'pore.
Sial~
Rush out and I realize..
They not even reach Kelana LRT yet.
While waiting, we ate some malay kuih and we talk crab..
Yea, crab..
and we even sing..
and see the train passby one by one..
Some how.. This appear in my mind..
We might can't as crazy n sampat as last time..
things been change just like the train passed by..
So fast and it seems to be season to season..
We need to be mature enough..
And be more serious..
That's what everyone want to see in us, perhaps?
And I think.. they never see.. that we already change A LOT..
And our smile.. Fade.. Just like that..
6.15pm.. Phew!!
Luckily on time before they went off.
And SAW Andrew hair..
Hahahahaha! Like...
okie..
DRAGON!!
I should take a picture.
Anyway, so sad to sent them off..
not really spending a lot of time with them..
But still, appreciate their presence.
Shall see them SOON.
=)
After that, went midvalley with Smun, cause there'r FREE SHUTTLE.
XD
1st time in it..
Pretty awesome, and we no need to pay!!
*Save COST.
And we spent time.. wonder around.. for drinks and food.
Oh yea! get to drink fruit juice and eat meats!!
=)
Fullfill my stomach.
Teehee~
went back quite earlier with BUS. Wow!
*Save MORE COST.
Reach hostel...
Heard rumors agn..
aiks..
And heard argument..
Hmph..
1st, they don't wanna allowed me to lead..
And now blame me for not helping..
And there, argue cause they'r not teaching well..
And there, attandance super low..
Since when a cheerleading team.. Become like this..
Aiks..
How!?
Should I go for it.. perhaps stuck myself in trouble?!
And yea, maybe miracles change and..
I don't know..
how..
Gonna lead some part of the CG this week..
Not one but 2!!
Leading P&W, games, offering....
I'm......
Choir..
BV?!
Things.. spinning in brain..
Need some one to talk to..
But.. where's eveyone?!
Is okie..
Things can be solve..
I just got to find ways and strength..
God!! Help~
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
hillarious surprise tat end with a powerful encounter
Part 1
Today i got to go out earlier as there's a meeting on before CWPM start.
Decided to go with Joy and I went Kelana Jaya LRT and wait for the bus to go to the area where she stay.
And when I get into the bus, the bus driver scolded me cause I'm not having a 'Bus Card'.
I'm wonder isit the new system.
Luckily I told him i didn't take bus so often and he agree to accept cash as the queue is long.
And he continue to scold those don't have 'Bus Card'..
Still he's accepting the cash..
WEIRD!!
Part 2
Met up Joy after her work and we tried to stop taxi to get to new building.
Few taxi go off as they don't wanna go Subang area or they got passenger in it.
Suddenly a car stopped and he ask us where we wanna go?
We caught in shock but he insist to fetch us.
Joy ask him to show the prove that he's a taxi driver and he took out his 'PROVE'~
Few paper there but I just saw his birth cert. XD
After comfirmation, we decided to get in his car.
As we insist to check his 'prove', he taugh we might not believing him.
All the way there, he's telling us, there's what building in front and want us to comfirm.
XD
I was SPEECHLESS!! XD
And he's driving an SUPER OLD car!! (*The mirror is broken and stick with tape, I can even feel the SOFA is moving, 3 windows are down, no air-cond.....)
He told us his son had just passed away and he need money for the funeral.
So he drove his old car for business instead of his taxi as his taxi is......
*SKIP SKIP
To be shortcut, he's driving SUPER OLD CAR to do his cab 'business'.
And suddenly at the high way..
He told us..
Aiyo.. Minyak sudah habis.. Saya ingat ia boleh jalan sampai ke petrol station.
@_@!!!!
WHAT?! It's high way you know!!!
And he ask us can we help him by pushing the car...
WHAT?! I suppose guys should do this..?!
Anyway, as we gt 2 female and 1 male, we decided to help in by getting down and push his car..
And HAHAHAHA!! Joy & me keep laughing while trying to push the car.. XD
this is the very 1st time I'm doing such thing in a high way.
FEEL GOOD. XD
But the car which passing by doesn't even wanna help up.
They just horn and passedby..
Aiks.. Can't just they be tolerate and help us up..?
Luckily the high way is going down hill.
And the car start to move.
Yippy!!
And the taxi driver ask us to jump into his car..
BUT THE CAR IS MOVING!!!!!
@_@
Oh my~
And luckily we able to JUMP in the car..
PHEW!!!
And the car able to reach petrol station.
And the driver said: See, I told you, GOD is GOOD!!
WOW!! okie!!!
God is really GOOD!
Cause we'r safe after all what had happen along the road.
Phew..
After he pump the petrol, he said, can u guys wait for awhile, the car engine might cant start..
WHAT?!
And he walk to the car wash place and request some help from his friend.
Aiks, we'r running OUT of time.
And we decided to pay him and walk to church.
I still can't stop laughing while writing this blog.
Anyway, we got a good experience in 'PUSHING CAR'.
Perhaps, WE ARE STRONG! XD
Today i got to go out earlier as there's a meeting on before CWPM start.
Decided to go with Joy and I went Kelana Jaya LRT and wait for the bus to go to the area where she stay.
And when I get into the bus, the bus driver scolded me cause I'm not having a 'Bus Card'.
I'm wonder isit the new system.
Luckily I told him i didn't take bus so often and he agree to accept cash as the queue is long.
And he continue to scold those don't have 'Bus Card'..
Still he's accepting the cash..
WEIRD!!
Part 2
Met up Joy after her work and we tried to stop taxi to get to new building.
Few taxi go off as they don't wanna go Subang area or they got passenger in it.
Suddenly a car stopped and he ask us where we wanna go?
We caught in shock but he insist to fetch us.
Joy ask him to show the prove that he's a taxi driver and he took out his 'PROVE'~
Few paper there but I just saw his birth cert. XD
After comfirmation, we decided to get in his car.
As we insist to check his 'prove', he taugh we might not believing him.
All the way there, he's telling us, there's what building in front and want us to comfirm.
XD
I was SPEECHLESS!! XD
And he's driving an SUPER OLD car!! (*The mirror is broken and stick with tape, I can even feel the SOFA is moving, 3 windows are down, no air-cond.....)
He told us his son had just passed away and he need money for the funeral.
So he drove his old car for business instead of his taxi as his taxi is......
*SKIP SKIP
To be shortcut, he's driving SUPER OLD CAR to do his cab 'business'.
And suddenly at the high way..
He told us..
Aiyo.. Minyak sudah habis.. Saya ingat ia boleh jalan sampai ke petrol station.
@_@!!!!
WHAT?! It's high way you know!!!
And he ask us can we help him by pushing the car...
WHAT?! I suppose guys should do this..?!
Anyway, as we gt 2 female and 1 male, we decided to help in by getting down and push his car..
And HAHAHAHA!! Joy & me keep laughing while trying to push the car.. XD
this is the very 1st time I'm doing such thing in a high way.
FEEL GOOD. XD
But the car which passing by doesn't even wanna help up.
They just horn and passedby..
Aiks.. Can't just they be tolerate and help us up..?
Luckily the high way is going down hill.
And the car start to move.
Yippy!!
And the taxi driver ask us to jump into his car..
BUT THE CAR IS MOVING!!!!!
@_@
Oh my~
And luckily we able to JUMP in the car..
PHEW!!!
And the car able to reach petrol station.
And the driver said: See, I told you, GOD is GOOD!!
WOW!! okie!!!
God is really GOOD!
Cause we'r safe after all what had happen along the road.
Phew..
After he pump the petrol, he said, can u guys wait for awhile, the car engine might cant start..
WHAT?!
And he walk to the car wash place and request some help from his friend.
Aiks, we'r running OUT of time.
And we decided to pay him and walk to church.
I still can't stop laughing while writing this blog.
Anyway, we got a good experience in 'PUSHING CAR'.
Perhaps, WE ARE STRONG! XD
Monday, May 2, 2011
1st May 2011
Suddenly feel like writing blog at this hour..
It's a new month!!
For the past 2 months..
So much thing happen in my life..
I know it might not be the worst ever situation I ever had..
And it might not the 'end of the world' for me..
But yet, the time that try to make myself strong ain't not easy..
The feeling just can't be explain just by words..
Trying to be +ve and be cheerfull..
Trying to be strong enough not just only support myself, but also support each of everyone who involve in or not(family & friends)..
Trying so hard to tell myself, duh, nvm, I'm not in the most word situation, buck up, ask God for answer and solution..
SOLVE SOLVE SOLVE!!
Part of it is done.. But some are not..
I know it can't be rushing..
But at least, keep the faith and stay still..
And today when we encounter God, I just feel like poured out everything..
Like what Joy said, God knows everything, and He's comfort us by saying, 'Hey, I'm here..'
That was the moment that I admit: yes, I'm so weak..
I can't describe how it goes but when you really encounter with God, you'll understand how I feel..
~I know that You are for me, I know that You are for me, I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness~
You are for me by Kari Jobe
EXPLAIN everything..
=)
God bless people!
Nitez~
It's a new month!!
For the past 2 months..
So much thing happen in my life..
I know it might not be the worst ever situation I ever had..
And it might not the 'end of the world' for me..
But yet, the time that try to make myself strong ain't not easy..
The feeling just can't be explain just by words..
Trying to be +ve and be cheerfull..
Trying to be strong enough not just only support myself, but also support each of everyone who involve in or not(family & friends)..
Trying so hard to tell myself, duh, nvm, I'm not in the most word situation, buck up, ask God for answer and solution..
SOLVE SOLVE SOLVE!!
Part of it is done.. But some are not..
I know it can't be rushing..
But at least, keep the faith and stay still..
And today when we encounter God, I just feel like poured out everything..
Like what Joy said, God knows everything, and He's comfort us by saying, 'Hey, I'm here..'
That was the moment that I admit: yes, I'm so weak..
I can't describe how it goes but when you really encounter with God, you'll understand how I feel..
~I know that You are for me, I know that You are for me, I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness~
You are for me by Kari Jobe
EXPLAIN everything..
=)
God bless people!
Nitez~
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Easter Day Service
Woohoo~
What a great Easter day service.. =)
LOVE GOD THINK OTHERS!!
What have shown in the Sixteen will be part of my life in the future.
Since small.. My mom educated me to do a good deed~
She always told me, 'do charity to help others.. Though we're poor, yet some other people out there may be having a poorer/worst life than us. So help others if we can. =)''
And there's when I start to give out my pocket money to the beggar, donate to whatever organization which is available.
Though my pocket money is just 50sen/RM1.
And since then I just love to do charity work..
Form 1, I follow my form teacher to General Hospital at Ipoh just to take care the kids who admit in hospital..
Form 2, I went OKU centre to give them some recycle item.
So as form 3 and form 4.
Form 5, i went old folks home.
And last year I went to help up in Junior emerge and visit orphanage..
Well, I just love hanging around with them..
Their smile will brighten my day!! =)
Haha! and when Pastor preach bout somebody email him, he past his B'day by blessing the orphan!
And guess what!! This is how I want to celebrate my b'day this year!!
Woohoo~ SO whoever see this.. =)
Well, u guys know what to do! XD
Haha!! or else maybe u guys can bless me with an amount of money!! =)
woohoo~ sial..
Am excited for it!!
ahaha!! Opps~
I just decided to sign up for Community Care!!
Err.. But how?
Gotta ask Joy Joy 1st. XD
Stepping in 1st step of my life~
Woohoo~
And I wanna be a millionare.. SO FREAKING BAD~
Haha! I wanna build home for those who needs!
Go mission trip~
Help others!!
Bless others!!
P.S: Anyone who's interested!! Come along with me. =)
What a great Easter day service.. =)
LOVE GOD THINK OTHERS!!
What have shown in the Sixteen will be part of my life in the future.
Since small.. My mom educated me to do a good deed~
She always told me, 'do charity to help others.. Though we're poor, yet some other people out there may be having a poorer/worst life than us. So help others if we can. =)''
And there's when I start to give out my pocket money to the beggar, donate to whatever organization which is available.
Though my pocket money is just 50sen/RM1.
And since then I just love to do charity work..
Form 1, I follow my form teacher to General Hospital at Ipoh just to take care the kids who admit in hospital..
Form 2, I went OKU centre to give them some recycle item.
So as form 3 and form 4.
Form 5, i went old folks home.
And last year I went to help up in Junior emerge and visit orphanage..
Well, I just love hanging around with them..
Their smile will brighten my day!! =)
Haha! and when Pastor preach bout somebody email him, he past his B'day by blessing the orphan!
And guess what!! This is how I want to celebrate my b'day this year!!
Woohoo~ SO whoever see this.. =)
Well, u guys know what to do! XD
Haha!! or else maybe u guys can bless me with an amount of money!! =)
woohoo~ sial..
Am excited for it!!
ahaha!! Opps~
I just decided to sign up for Community Care!!
Err.. But how?
Gotta ask Joy Joy 1st. XD
Stepping in 1st step of my life~
Woohoo~
And I wanna be a millionare.. SO FREAKING BAD~
Haha! I wanna build home for those who needs!
Go mission trip~
Help others!!
Bless others!!
P.S: Anyone who's interested!! Come along with me. =)
Friday, April 15, 2011
Presence of God!
Presence Conference 2011!
Finally I get to watch it at Chia Huey house.
Totally a bless and Spirit of God overwhelmed me!
Even we sit in front of the TV watching Live show..
Yet the presence of God is strong!
Just feel so so so so touch!
Kari Jobe who leading worship make everyone fall into the presence of God!
Powerfull!
After it ends~
We have a short prayer with CG member and Chia Huey~
Many things been happen in Cell Group member..
My grandpa and Smun's Grandma past away..
Joy is so stress in her life..
Torng Eei facing her identity problem..
Much much more..
='(
Oh sial~ Feel like crying edi..
I still remember when my grandpa past away, I went back alone..
I didn't even told anyone that he's no longer with us..
Till I reached and I tweet..
Joy know, and I told Torng and Chin too.
Yet everyone is busy and prep for Smun's b'day thingy~
So I choose to be more silent and stay stronger..
Yet Shan Yong called, and ask me how was I..
U know, it's so hard to pretend ok..
Plus I really don't know how to express out my feeling..
Yet everything is cover..
My friends and family think I'm strong enough to face it..
But actually not..
Till today.. I totally cry out to God..
Thx God for building up a new character for me..
And Smun, stay strong too.. =')
Our grandparents is at a better place.
I believe they don't want us to be unhappy too..
Take carez~
P.S.
Everyone will face stress and unhappy thing happen in their life..
Don't forget that actually our problem ain't not big compare to those who really suffer in their life..
Walk out from your past..
Walk out from your stress..
Walk out from your unhappiness..
Walk out from your problems..
Encounter God in everything..
For You believe Him, He'll help you to pass through every single problem in your life..
Take is as challenge..
And don't forget, God will challenge you in your life..
If you have faith, you'll pass the test!
Finally I get to watch it at Chia Huey house.
Totally a bless and Spirit of God overwhelmed me!
Even we sit in front of the TV watching Live show..
Yet the presence of God is strong!
Just feel so so so so touch!
Kari Jobe who leading worship make everyone fall into the presence of God!
Powerfull!
After it ends~
We have a short prayer with CG member and Chia Huey~
Many things been happen in Cell Group member..
My grandpa and Smun's Grandma past away..
Joy is so stress in her life..
Torng Eei facing her identity problem..
Much much more..
='(
Oh sial~ Feel like crying edi..
I still remember when my grandpa past away, I went back alone..
I didn't even told anyone that he's no longer with us..
Till I reached and I tweet..
Joy know, and I told Torng and Chin too.
Yet everyone is busy and prep for Smun's b'day thingy~
So I choose to be more silent and stay stronger..
Yet Shan Yong called, and ask me how was I..
U know, it's so hard to pretend ok..
Plus I really don't know how to express out my feeling..
Yet everything is cover..
My friends and family think I'm strong enough to face it..
But actually not..
Till today.. I totally cry out to God..
Thx God for building up a new character for me..
And Smun, stay strong too.. =')
Our grandparents is at a better place.
I believe they don't want us to be unhappy too..
Take carez~
P.S.
Everyone will face stress and unhappy thing happen in their life..
Don't forget that actually our problem ain't not big compare to those who really suffer in their life..
Walk out from your past..
Walk out from your stress..
Walk out from your unhappiness..
Walk out from your problems..
Encounter God in everything..
For You believe Him, He'll help you to pass through every single problem in your life..
Take is as challenge..
And don't forget, God will challenge you in your life..
If you have faith, you'll pass the test!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
I just knew that everyone expect me to be strong enough to face my grandpa past away..
But..
Too bad..
not this time.
Anyway, time past and I'll be alright..
Perhaps give me some time..
And I'll be fine. =)
So much things going on and so much things to be done!
Believe in God that He'll help me through all this.
Coz God never give things that you can't face.
It's time to test my faith..
Well, as Keith said
Pray and learn~
The meaning of this picture..
It's from God..
And Joy..
Touch~
thx for the answer..
Guess what..
When I was on the way back from Taiping..
I spent some time thinking and wondering.
And suddenly I see my watch.
That's when my watch stop..
but the few minute and hour thingy is going on..
Weird, right?!
Resposibility is getting bigger.
It's time to step out from my comfort zone..
I might afraid..
But Joy if u see this..
I know you'll walk with me, right?
But..
Too bad..
not this time.
Anyway, time past and I'll be alright..
Perhaps give me some time..
And I'll be fine. =)
So much things going on and so much things to be done!
Believe in God that He'll help me through all this.
Coz God never give things that you can't face.
It's time to test my faith..
Well, as Keith said
Went Church Wide Prayer Meeting ystd..
Pray and learn~
The meaning of this picture..It's from God..
And Joy..
Touch~
thx for the answer..
Guess what..
When I was on the way back from Taiping..
I spent some time thinking and wondering.
And suddenly I see my watch.
That's when my watch stop..
but the few minute and hour thingy is going on..
Weird, right?!
Resposibility is getting bigger.
It's time to step out from my comfort zone..
I might afraid..
But Joy if u see this..
I know you'll walk with me, right?
Monday, March 28, 2011
Goodbye Grandpa!! ='(
Grandpa had been struggle a lot when he fall sick.. Many years ago, he get diebetic and hypertension. And he even had to do heart surgery.. He past through that season but yet, the health still 'turn on the RED button'. Few years ago, he's was diagnose for diebetic gangrene. Few of his toe at right side got to be chop off as the wound is getting worst.. Yet he past through that season. But his kidney is giving him problem. End up with kidney failure and he had to do dialysis altered day.. and start from March.. His health is getting worst!! He got sudden angina. And went for emergency.. Luckily it was on time yet doctor want him to be operate as soon as possible. But his left leg is giving him problem. he got a wound there and as a diebetic patient, it's quite hard for his wound to be heal. End up his toe got to be chop off toe by toe as it was infected. And his heart surgery got to be delay as coagulant drugs will be given to him if he do the heart surgery. And the drugs will make his leg bleeding none stop. My grandpa was quite phobia as his toe is chop off one by one.. And he keep on walking till he bleed because he insist to come back Taiping. End up my uncle decide to bring him back. few days ago.. His wound get infection. My uncle drive him all the way down from Taiping to Kedah just to get the best treatment for his leg daily.. It's quite tiring for them but yet things get worst after that.. Grandpa start to be unconscious from time to time. Yet he refuse to go hospital. He's afraid that his leg will be amputate. On thusday, which is the day I went back, I can't meet him up because my uncle had drive him all the way to Penang for treatment. He get sepsis shock.. And depends on intubater to survive. Doctor said his leg must be amputate, and the persentage is just 50%. Yet, my grandpa can't survive without the intubater. Family decide to sent him back using ambulance. And at the time he's move in the house, he start gasping for air and here end his life.. ='( I can't make it on time to meet him up for the last time. Yet.. I know.. and I believe, he is at a better place now.. Goodbye Grandpa.. Take carez.. And let go everything.. Family will stay strong and take carez one another.. Don't worry.. =') *Lesson to learn.. I though by keeping my own feeling.. It wounld be a better way to support my family. But actually I'm wrong. Mixing feeling happen in between.. not gonna tell off here.. Anyway, thx for those who call me, tweet me and text me. You guys does support me!! Thx a lot..
Friday, March 25, 2011
难过了，戴上耳机，漫步在小路上、
难过了，吃自己喜欢的东西。
难过了，静静的蹲下来抱着自己，让眼泪尽情的洒落
难过了，拿着镜子看看此刻的自己，让真实浮现眼前
难过了，默默的将自己隐藏起来，让空虚掩盖一切
难过了，闭眼倾听周围的声音，让自己沉浸在喧嚣中
难过了，不必告诉别人，自己的悲伤为何要别人也承担呢
难过了，可以假装快乐，和别人一起兴奋时就能遗忘了自己
难过了，仍然安慰别的伤心者，你会发现自己也在受益，当局者迷而已
有谁不曾难过
有谁还会记得
过去的不再从来
又何必去苦想
忘掉…
用微笑渲泄悲伤
Saw this accidentally~
Sounds so emo.. yet.. still wanna post it..
Hahaha!! RANDOM!
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