再过几天，就能决定我的下一步。。
每天都在倒数。。 失眠。。
每天也在问，主啊，为什么要送我回去没有您的地方。。
三年前的Emerge，我认识了您，可是三年后的Emerge，您却要把我送走。。
真的好难过。。
我信主以后，找到了自我，找到了梦想，找到了人生目标。。
可是，现在，全都破碎了吗？
每天听了教会的歌，都会哭。。
真的很不舍得离开这一切。。
Monday, August 6, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Friday, March 30, 2012
The Heart
was about to write life and death..
but some how, not today..
Ask yourself today..
when was your last real smile from the bottom of your heart?
when was your last relief?
Everything was about the heart matter..
Bible said a lot of thing about the heart of the man.
God knows all of our hearts, “For you alone know the hearts of all the sons of men.” (I Kings 8:39)
The question is do you and I know our own heart?
People had been questioned about themselves throughout the year.
And I believe me and you did the same too..
When the Bible speaks of the human heart it is speaking of the thinking of a man, a man’s will, a man’s emotions or feelings, a man’s conscience, or any given combinations of these.
(1) The heart is the thinking aspect of man. “For as he thinks in his heart, so is he.” (Prov. 23:7)
Jesus asks, “Why do you think evil in your hearts?” (Matt. 9:4 )
“For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts.” (Matt. 15:19 )
“If that evil servant says in his heart, ‘My master is delaying his coming.’” (Matt. 24:48) The evil servant says this in his heart because that is what he is thinking.
“But Mary kept all these things and pondered them in her heart.” (Luke 2:19)
Mary thought about these things and mulled them over in her mind.
One could go on and find verse after verse in the Bible teaching the same thing about the heart being the place of thought, reasoning, and understanding within man.
Sometime people will think: 'Am I responsible to what am I thinking about?'
The Bible answers in the affirmative.
“For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace. Because the carnal mind is enmity against God; for it is not subject to the law of God, nor indeed can be.” (Rom. 8:6 )
“Whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy–meditate on these things.” (Phil. 4:8)
TO BE CONTINUE... =)
but some how, not today..
Ask yourself today..
when was your last real smile from the bottom of your heart?
when was your last relief?
Everything was about the heart matter..
Bible said a lot of thing about the heart of the man.
God knows all of our hearts, “For you alone know the hearts of all the sons of men.” (I Kings 8:39)
The question is do you and I know our own heart?
People had been questioned about themselves throughout the year.
And I believe me and you did the same too..
When the Bible speaks of the human heart it is speaking of the thinking of a man, a man’s will, a man’s emotions or feelings, a man’s conscience, or any given combinations of these.
(1) The heart is the thinking aspect of man. “For as he thinks in his heart, so is he.” (Prov. 23:7)
Jesus asks, “Why do you think evil in your hearts?” (Matt. 9:4 )
“For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts.” (Matt. 15:19 )
“If that evil servant says in his heart, ‘My master is delaying his coming.’” (Matt. 24:48) The evil servant says this in his heart because that is what he is thinking.
“But Mary kept all these things and pondered them in her heart.” (Luke 2:19)
Mary thought about these things and mulled them over in her mind.
One could go on and find verse after verse in the Bible teaching the same thing about the heart being the place of thought, reasoning, and understanding within man.
Sometime people will think: 'Am I responsible to what am I thinking about?'
The Bible answers in the affirmative.
“For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace. Because the carnal mind is enmity against God; for it is not subject to the law of God, nor indeed can be.” (Rom. 8:6 )
“Whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy–meditate on these things.” (Phil. 4:8)
TO BE CONTINUE... =)
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Take me with YOU!
Today I went Air Asia for a health screening event..
On my way, when we almost reach Air Asia, I look out from the van.
And I saw..
The airplane fly off~
Somehow, I just wish, I'm in there..
Need a holiday to go off from everything here..
Fly off to another place which nobody know, and enjoy the moment..
Too much thing to be taken..
And it's time to let go~
God is with me through this season..
I know that..
But still, it's the heart matter..
Got to get through it..
And life moves on~
Lastly, I wanna SAY:
On my way, when we almost reach Air Asia, I look out from the van.
And I saw..
The airplane fly off~
Somehow, I just wish, I'm in there..Need a holiday to go off from everything here..
Fly off to another place which nobody know, and enjoy the moment..
Too much thing to be taken..
And it's time to let go~
God is with me through this season..
I know that..
But still, it's the heart matter..
Got to get through it..
And life moves on~
Lastly, I wanna SAY:
Monday, March 5, 2012
God is GOOD!
Is March!
This few weeks, there's so much flashback and to come upon and see who I am today, I really want to thanks God for what He had done in my life.
Back to the day when I first was choose to become an intern. I was excited in the same time, I'm sad. I know there might be a crack in friendship, I might turn out busy, I might get myself into the busy life, yet I have faith to step for it.
Some how, things doesn't go as smooth as how I want..
Things started to goes wrong..
There's once I got to lead praise and worship on the same week in 2 cell group.
The first one in Wen Dee's cell group, I feel that I've done so badly and I can't even feel the God's presence. And the next day was my cell group, I just can't overcome my feelings that I think I've ruin everything. End up I'm crying and need Joy to help me to continue the leading the P&W.
From that day onwards, I don't feel like singing anymore, I can't find satisfaction and feel that my singing is bad. I started to stop getting the chance to lead P&W, wishing no duty for me to lead P&W in cell group. And due the busy time we had, chance to have cell group is getting lesser too. I feel so 'oh yeah, no need to lead' at this side, and 'no, Siang Lin, this is not the right attitude to serve God' at the other side. The mix feelings make me walk further far from God. I serve in Choir with the wrong heart attitude too.
Things get worst when I realize I'm not gonna graduate and become a leader. I was asking God, why? Why things just go wrong? I serve in church, I follow Your will, I try my best to attend leader's meeting and even find time to meet the Saturday meeting still I got no time for it.. I drop into disappointment. From that day, I take things easily and have the 'tidak-apa' attitude.
But God never give up on me. He hint me in dreams one day. I've dreamt that I was on the stage with few of my choirs member, holding the mic leading P&W. I woke up in shock and think, will this happen? My 1st answer appear in mind was NO!! I don't believe this will happen as I've lost confident on singing or leading.
Still, God didn't stop helping me. He allowed my Facebook fill with videos that composed by my Facebook friends. I know this is funny but still the videos does inspire me. Then I start thinking, where's the 'FIRE' I got last time..? where's my dream go..? where's the pathway that God guide me in..? I started to listen to P&W songs, start singing and practice. I started to pray more too! And my 'FIRE' is started to burn.
When Pastor Kevin preach the sermon, 'PRAY'. More things to flash back to me.. My life is bad when I first came to here but God lead me to a better one. And now I should do more to have a greater life! Why should I stop and quite while facing down time? God had spoken to me that day, Siang Lin, be more brave and step one more step forward, you've been rest for a long time, is time to get back on track! And on Saturday night itself, I've think a lot and decide, yes, AM NOT GONNA GIVE UP!
Believe in God is so amazing and I'm feel bless with it. Last Wednesday, I get a chance to sing on stage as a BV and thanks to Joy for 'pushing' me for it!! I was wonder, "should I or not? can I sing well with mic? The mic!!! I can't sing with mic!!". Although I'm super 'GAN JIONG' but I just feel like doing it! It's time for breakthrough! Everyone in my choir team encourage each other and we did it well! =) All glory to GOD! And we even get a chance to serve in Leader's meeting on the coming Tues!
And next of course, I get a chance to lead P&W in cell group yesterday!!! Amazingly~ I fear is gone and although I koyakz in some part, but still I glad I've done it! (P.S. haven't get feedback from Joy yet). More practice to go for and more things to be improve, God is good!!
Thanks God for never letting me go alone. It's a lesson for me to learn in the past season and I believe in this brand new season, He gonna walk with me too!
This few weeks, there's so much flashback and to come upon and see who I am today, I really want to thanks God for what He had done in my life.
Back to the day when I first was choose to become an intern. I was excited in the same time, I'm sad. I know there might be a crack in friendship, I might turn out busy, I might get myself into the busy life, yet I have faith to step for it.
Some how, things doesn't go as smooth as how I want..
Things started to goes wrong..
There's once I got to lead praise and worship on the same week in 2 cell group.
The first one in Wen Dee's cell group, I feel that I've done so badly and I can't even feel the God's presence. And the next day was my cell group, I just can't overcome my feelings that I think I've ruin everything. End up I'm crying and need Joy to help me to continue the leading the P&W.
From that day onwards, I don't feel like singing anymore, I can't find satisfaction and feel that my singing is bad. I started to stop getting the chance to lead P&W, wishing no duty for me to lead P&W in cell group. And due the busy time we had, chance to have cell group is getting lesser too. I feel so 'oh yeah, no need to lead' at this side, and 'no, Siang Lin, this is not the right attitude to serve God' at the other side. The mix feelings make me walk further far from God. I serve in Choir with the wrong heart attitude too.
Things get worst when I realize I'm not gonna graduate and become a leader. I was asking God, why? Why things just go wrong? I serve in church, I follow Your will, I try my best to attend leader's meeting and even find time to meet the Saturday meeting still I got no time for it.. I drop into disappointment. From that day, I take things easily and have the 'tidak-apa' attitude.
But God never give up on me. He hint me in dreams one day. I've dreamt that I was on the stage with few of my choirs member, holding the mic leading P&W. I woke up in shock and think, will this happen? My 1st answer appear in mind was NO!! I don't believe this will happen as I've lost confident on singing or leading.
Still, God didn't stop helping me. He allowed my Facebook fill with videos that composed by my Facebook friends. I know this is funny but still the videos does inspire me. Then I start thinking, where's the 'FIRE' I got last time..? where's my dream go..? where's the pathway that God guide me in..? I started to listen to P&W songs, start singing and practice. I started to pray more too! And my 'FIRE' is started to burn.
When Pastor Kevin preach the sermon, 'PRAY'. More things to flash back to me.. My life is bad when I first came to here but God lead me to a better one. And now I should do more to have a greater life! Why should I stop and quite while facing down time? God had spoken to me that day, Siang Lin, be more brave and step one more step forward, you've been rest for a long time, is time to get back on track! And on Saturday night itself, I've think a lot and decide, yes, AM NOT GONNA GIVE UP!
Believe in God is so amazing and I'm feel bless with it. Last Wednesday, I get a chance to sing on stage as a BV and thanks to Joy for 'pushing' me for it!! I was wonder, "should I or not? can I sing well with mic? The mic!!! I can't sing with mic!!". Although I'm super 'GAN JIONG' but I just feel like doing it! It's time for breakthrough! Everyone in my choir team encourage each other and we did it well! =) All glory to GOD! And we even get a chance to serve in Leader's meeting on the coming Tues!
And next of course, I get a chance to lead P&W in cell group yesterday!!! Amazingly~ I fear is gone and although I koyakz in some part, but still I glad I've done it! (P.S. haven't get feedback from Joy yet). More practice to go for and more things to be improve, God is good!!
Thanks God for never letting me go alone. It's a lesson for me to learn in the past season and I believe in this brand new season, He gonna walk with me too!
Thursday, July 7, 2011
我的生活
很多东西都自己扛。。
也习惯了这样的我。。
尝试和人分担。。
可是还是没办法说出口。。
坚强是我的个性。。
习惯了。。
所以再怎么辛苦。。
还是可以熬过的。。
=）
雨过还是会天晴。。
这就是我。。
看到身边的朋友不行了。。
想帮他们。。
可是因为太容易了解一个人。。
反而要帮也要用对方想要的方法去帮。。
别人开心，我就开心。。
所以，你们要过得好好的。
=）
今天突然好想家人。
我的表达能力不好。。
可是，希望他们知道。。
我爱你们！！
也愿意扛起家里的负担！
=）
想你们，就把照片拿出来看。。
笑一笑，希望你们过得很好。
突然想起一个人。
他就像哥哥一样。
不懂他过得好吗？
都一直在忙。。
生活中有亲情和友情，我就满足了。。
知足常乐。
晚安。。 =）
也习惯了这样的我。。
尝试和人分担。。
可是还是没办法说出口。。
坚强是我的个性。。
习惯了。。
所以再怎么辛苦。。
还是可以熬过的。。
=）
雨过还是会天晴。。
这就是我。。
看到身边的朋友不行了。。
想帮他们。。
可是因为太容易了解一个人。。
反而要帮也要用对方想要的方法去帮。。
别人开心，我就开心。。
所以，你们要过得好好的。
=）
今天突然好想家人。
我的表达能力不好。。
可是，希望他们知道。。
我爱你们！！
也愿意扛起家里的负担！
=）
想你们，就把照片拿出来看。。
笑一笑，希望你们过得很好。
突然想起一个人。
他就像哥哥一样。
不懂他过得好吗？
都一直在忙。。
生活中有亲情和友情，我就满足了。。
知足常乐。
晚安。。 =）
A broken chain to a chain.
Question for today.. 
How can a broken chain turn into a chain?
Can it work out?
Is it possible?
And here comes the words.. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.. =)
So, do
And
Have
And
So, we'll see how everything work out. =)
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Sick day... SICK SICK SICK.. @_@
Argh!!!
Why...
Nose SUPER ITCHY..
But can't sneeze..
This FACE appear few times!!
Next!!
HaChoo HaChoo HaChoo..
Finally!!!
Oh yea!!!
Feel better..
But end up..
I keep on SNEEZING!!!!
Trying hard to do my journal with the strength I have..
Next!! Tissues Tissues!!!!
And I finish up 1 BOX!!!
U guys must be.. WHAT?!
ONE BOX?!!!??
Yes... I just finished up 1 BOX of TISSUES!!!!
@_@
And I found this online!!!
Once the psn pulled out the tissue, it will HACHOO..
So cute!!
So.. Can it replace me?
Hahaha!!
And next..
I wish I get this!!!
Non-stop supplyer!!
From the magical hat!!
Perhaps.. In my DREAM!! >_<
Got to get some tissues TOMORROW!!!
OUT OF STOCK!!
I think this was my 1st time getting such a worst flu..
Well, I seldom get flu as cough will attack me more.
And this time.. @_@
Fine, I surrender..
But SOON, oh yea SOON!!
My immune system gonna KILL all of you!!
Wuahahaha!!
*Opps, sry buddy, gonna postponed our dinner to another day.
Too tired to go out for dinner. Paiseh paiseh!
Why...
Nose SUPER ITCHY..
But can't sneeze..
This FACE appear few times!!
Next!!
HaChoo HaChoo HaChoo..
Finally!!!
Oh yea!!!
Feel better..
But end up..
I keep on SNEEZING!!!!
Trying hard to do my journal with the strength I have..
Next!! Tissues Tissues!!!!
And I finish up 1 BOX!!!
U guys must be.. WHAT?!
ONE BOX?!!!??
Yes... I just finished up 1 BOX of TISSUES!!!!
@_@
And I found this online!!!
Once the psn pulled out the tissue, it will HACHOO..
So cute!!
So.. Can it replace me?
Hahaha!!
And next..
I wish I get this!!!
Non-stop supplyer!!
From the magical hat!!
Perhaps.. In my DREAM!! >_<
Got to get some tissues TOMORROW!!!
OUT OF STOCK!!
I think this was my 1st time getting such a worst flu..
Well, I seldom get flu as cough will attack me more.
And this time.. @_@
Fine, I surrender..
But SOON, oh yea SOON!!
My immune system gonna KILL all of you!!
Wuahahaha!!
*Opps, sry buddy, gonna postponed our dinner to another day.
Too tired to go out for dinner. Paiseh paiseh!
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